Not flesh of my flesh, nor bone of my bone; but, still miraculously, my own.
Never forget, for a single minute you didn't grow under my heart, but in it.

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Spring in pictures part 1

I have not been good about keeping up my blog.  I am sorry guys.  Life is kinda hard in ways this past year.  For anyone that is following along and likes to read THANK YOU!  I NEED YOU GUYS!  Anyway I will be posting some pics from our springtime now that we are moving into summer and will have all our fun summer activities to share :)
a fun date night with a picnic at the fountains where we danced on our wedding day!

Celeste doing my hair for mother's day

Mother's day 2012

Noah playin with friends!

Noah playin with my best friends kids at her daughter's college graduation party

my  baby girl  is 24 now! :)

My sweet girl did a photo shoot for us!

I a so blessed!

My happy Boy!

My Panda Boy at therapy!  He made the family in potato head people

Noah on hair cut day and in Daddy's Taiwan R.O.C.ks tshirt!

Pirate day at therapy!

Saturday, March 31, 2012

Jeremiah Harold Sisemore is 4!

Sorry I am a bit late with Jeremiah's Birthday update!  Was trying to wait on pictures that were taken at the party!  I have some now so I will go with what I have.  :)  The weather was beautiful for Jeremiah's party swinging in the park!  He LOVES to be outside!  He was very non responsive on party day which made me a little sad, but I just have to pray he was loving it all on the inside!  We are so thankful for those who took time out of there Saturday to come out and celebrate Jeremiah's life with us! :)  I look at him sometimes and I am amazed at the power of God!  I will ALWAYS remember those LONG days in PICU and that Jeremiah was the baby they thought would NOT go out of there alive! :)  He has defied the odds so many times in his short 4 years!  He is doing remarkably well!  He is EATING AGAIN!  And they said it would never happen! :) This boy LOVES to hear someone say he will NEVER do something.  I think it gives him what he needs to push to do it! :)  heehee  He is eatin 3 meals a day!  He is slow and he does tire out so we do have to supplement with his formula by his mic-key button but he is eating!  :)  So on his party day I made my first birthday cake baby food! :)  Thank God for the food processor my family got me for Christmas! :)  It is big and at times I get sick of cleaning it and pulling it out but when I want him to have something specific or we are out of baby food it sure is handy! :)  His cake was blueberry muffin with a splenda cream cheese icing.  The icing bombed!  It was so thin and runny not at all like what is claimed it would be.  So I kept TRYING to make it work never did, so I literaly had to pour it over the big cupcake and the little cupcakes.  The big one I would have to let dry and pour again and try to fill in the spots.  It was very frustrating.  It LOOKED ok other than the fact the icing was hot pink NOT RED!  I was soo frutrated!  I put in a BIG bottle of red food color and then 2 red gel food color tubes and it never did get red!  The taste to me was not good and of course it did not have the texture of frosting.  It looked like everything had hot pink shelack!  lol  Anyway live and learn.  I am already worried about Noah's cake for next month.  I guess I will NOT try and make it healthy! LOL  Jeremiah is growing like a weed!  He is 35 inches long and 28 lbs! :)  I am wondering if we have gained since that last weight cuz he is looking a bit chunky in the thighs!  We will go in for a check up soon and get a new weight.  There are some days he is sooo responsive and he just amazes me and then other days he worries me to death!  His newest trick is to THROW himself OUT of his tumbleform chair!  I dont mean just roll out or lean over and flop out, I mean throw himself forward and out!  It is the scariest thing!  I soooo wish I had the straps that some have that come over the shoulder and then latch onto a waist strap.  This one was a gift but no straps!  He is spending way more time in his baby/toddler rocking chair because it has a strap!  He does try to fling himself out of it, but it doesnt work!  I think it ticks him off! heehee  He loves to be on the floor on his space blanket and will scoot all over the place on his back on that!  He is not as pleased with tummy time but we do it just the same!  He also spends time in his stander and at times will sleep in there! LOL  His cortical visual impairment is challenging to figure out ways to help him use what vision he does have.  It is wild because some say he is totally blind but that is obviously not true because he can see light for sure.  The school folks that come to the house have gotten him to look at some things and he seems to see red the best.  That is why the party was a ELMO party!  He loves to hear Elmo giggle too! :)  He will watch his new ELMO dvds in his stander now and it is so cute.  He doesnt appear to be paying attention most of the time but every once in awhile you can tell he is watching and then all of a sudden he will crack up! :)  He also likes Caillou! When Noah watches it he will at times coo or laugh at them!  He loves weird sounds, funny sounds, loud sounds, obnoxious sounds! LOL  The smoke alarm in the house went off, he is laughing and cooing at it! At a fire state field trip on his real birthday they set off smoke alarm, he grins soo big!  They set the siren on the fire truck as they were pulling it out for kids to see, he grins and cracks up!  Too funny to me :)  He loves giggling!  It is hard at times for me to believe that he has not been home even 2 years yet!  Well, I am sure you are tired of  my talking on and on.  Now for some pics!  Some are from the party, some are from his real birthday which was the 29th.  We did a picnic at the park.  It rained on and off but the covered pavillion made it workable!  He loves it outside and the sound of the rain on the tin roof made him happy too :)

He is soo beautiful to me! :)  The middle picture is at the party!  My mom put her sun shades on him :)  the picture on the right is him laughing at the fire engine!

I was so blessed my best friend of almost 23 years dropped by when she was recouperating from a major surgery and was suppose to be resting at home!  :)  Aunt Pam loves her babies :) 

This boy loves to swing!  I know he is not really responsive in the pics but because of past times I just know he was loving it!


Here are some shots of Noah playing at his baby brother's party! :)  He has soo much energy! :) 

This was a the fire station on his real bday.  I wish we could have gotten this without me in the picture!  When I first set him down he was grinning soo big!

Going for a stroll on our picnic in the park.

This was when the man set the smoke alarm off! :)  I love how he expresses joy! :)  

My sweet frogie boy gives me soo much love!  It is funny the ways he communicates to me at times.  One of his newest things that I just have to believe is an I love you mom thing is when I have him laying on my tummy and chest and his little face is in front of mine he will lean his head down so his face is touching mine and he makes some little almost purring sounds.  I know it sounds odd but I have not seen him do that to other people and for this mama it is a very special thing.  I may be puttin more to it than it is but I hope not.  

I have to get a big huge thank you to everyone that helped use bring Jeremiah home!  Every time I look at him I think about what if.  What if just one of the people who donated didn't, just one of the places that ordered plate lunches didn't, just one person that prayed didn't.  I think often about Dr. Edleman saying if we had waited one more week to pick up Jeremiah he would have died in Taiwan.  WOW!  That is huge!  So whether you donated a penny or a ton, whether you donated your time, your prayers, your support, when you look at Jeremiah KNOW that HE is a life you have changed! 

And last but certainly not least I have to give huge thanks to Jeremiah's birth mother for giving him life.  For going through with her pregnancy and giving him a chance to know love and family!  And a HUGE thank you to St. Lucy's Center Orphanage in Taiwan for loving and caring for my frogie boy till I could get there to get him, and to Heartsent Adoptions for all there help to adopt him, there patience with us as we sent in penny by penny our fees, there prayers and friendship through the years, and there continued work for the orphans of Taiwan and the world! 

Jeremiah and I send you all Kisses in the Wind!

Sunday, February 26, 2012

February at the Sisemore's!

So Its been almost a month since I posted on this blog so I thought someone out there might like to see what has been goin on at the Sisemore's.  Not sure how many still read blog's now adays but I still love reading and posting.  I am determined to afford someday to put this all in a book, but since I have a big mouth (well at least with my fingers I do) and post so much there are ALOT of posts on this blog since it began way back when :)  Anyway on to February at The Sisemore's :)

This was a skate night "date" with Noah the night before he had surgery.  Since we have the nurse now to help with Jeremiah and had hours we were not using with the help of my family we decided thursday evenings would be "date night".  The plan is for one night Bobby and I go out and do something and Celeste keeps Noah here with nurse and Miah, and one night Celeste and I go out and Bobby keeps Noah here with nurse and Miah, one night Noah and I go out, or Noah , Daddy and I, or Noah Celeste and I, depends on the activity.  Someone is always in the home with Jeremiah and the nurse but my mom can be here but not really do Jeremiah's care, but can know he is being taken care of well.  Everyone seems to be enjoying this.  The trick has been finding very cheap or free activites to do at night.  The skating was good priced and it was a whirlwind of emotions with Noah.  You might have to click on it to make it bigger t see all the faces.  He was so excited and then he flipped out at the idea of skates, so I thought will I will try and put on one and see how it goes, totally freaked.  so off they came and I thought well this is not working out at all.  Then we sat down to eat something and daddy reminded him about Caillou ice skating and then Noah wanted skates on.  lol  We also talked at length during the meal about surgery the next day.  He did not seem to understand at all, but at least we tried to prepare him.  

Here are some shots from surgery day.  Noah was not a happy camper to be taken out of his bed so early! But considering how tired and afraid he was he did amazing.  I know the Lord was helping him thanks to all the folks praying!
We were very blessed to be at a Children's Hospital.  They called before the surgery because they offer tours to prepare children.  But they also know Noah from us living there with Jeremiah that first month, and our trips back since and they agreed that it would be too much for him to know that far in advance  So they said they would do something to help him understand better that morning.  I was thinking a book, and a book was mentioned but the child life lady came with a little stuffed patient and a kit for Noah to do surgery on his little patient.  He really didnt want anything to do with her at first, but by the end he was in her lap! :)  I am still no positive he totally understood but everyone did there best to help him to understand and he was such a big boy taking his versed to make him loopy before time to go to surgery.  


I thought I was going to collapse when they wheeled him away.  He was loopy but still awake and just looked at me with those eyes!! I know he was thinking mama you are not REALLY going to let them take me away are you.  I held it together till he could not see me anymore and then lost it.  Then pulled myself back together and went back to the room to pray and wait and eat breakfast with my daddy and Jei Jei.

So after the tongue and ear surgery we were to go back for more hearing testing to get the readings they needed for his hearing aids.  They dr and audiologist had explained that with permanent hearing damage to the nerve that tube surgery will not help that part, the tube surgery is mainly for a child with so much pressure in the ears to remove that and equalize the pressure so it wont fluctuate and affect the hearing aids ability to work.  So when we went back everyone, especially the audiologist and the dr.  were excited to discover that Noah does not follow the rules (just like his baby brother, lol) and even thought " tube surgery cannot reverse permanent nerve damage" IT DID! Noah does still have some mild permanent hearing loss caused by damage to the nerve but it is GREATLY improved!  The audiologist was shaking her head!  I then told her about all his little friends in church praying over him and laying hands on his ears 2 days before his surgery.  She was like wow.  Funny thing is the newest report on his hearing says that this testing was more accurate and reliable and the first testing was not.  LOL  I cracked up  She insisted in the first testing that he was 100 percent on target reliable everytime she redid a sound he tested at the exact same place.  But now that a scientifically unexplainable miracle has happened the first testing was wrong.  LOL  Oh well, they can believe what they want, but little Noah ran up to a sweet lady he knows at church that night at supper and said , " God fix my ears!  That's my boy! He knows!

So then on the 9th was Daddy's bday!  He chose to go eat at Genghis Grill and have mongolian food.  It was soo yummy!  Noah was not very happy at this place at least at the beginning.  You have to go through a line and pick out your food you want cooked and put it in your bowl and then at the grill you leave it for them to cook and then they bring to your table.  When he had to give that bowl to them, HE FLIPPED OUT!  poor baby.  He kept screamin I HUNGY!  over and over.  So I am taking a flailing screaming child back to the table trying to explain over his cries AGAIN that they are cooking your food baby, you are going to eat.  He did finally calm down but was not really happy till they indeed brought his supper.  Even when Celeste's beau Dallas went and got some of the little fried Chinese noodles, he was still worrying about his supper!  But he ate it up soo good once it got there :) 

Next came Valentine's day!  Great minds think alike and both Celeste and us got Jeremiah the same little valentine's frog! LOL  Noah is very into little animals right now so he was thrilled with his monkey from us.  We could not find a panda and were sad.  Never fear, big sis found one at the store she was at so he got a new panda with a heart too :) 

So we had a belated Chinese New year Celebration trying to work around work schedules and such.  It was also alot less involved this year that I would have liked but at least we still did it.  None of the clothes were new, so many of the traditions of it we could not do this year but we did have a nice chinese homecooked and healthied up meal and enjoy some time together!  Noah chose to play mexican train after dinner!  LOL  So we had Chinese food, Mexican train and had been gifted with a Southern Maid Donut king cake for our dessert! LOL  guess we brought all aspects of our family into one night, except no Irish component!  heehee

This was just too cute, Noah was watching the wheel chair man the entire time he made some adjustments on Jeremiah's chair and then I find him fixin the chair himself!  lol thank goodness his tools were fake!

Just some shots of Jeremiah from the past month! :)  He can be the most snuggly little fellow and can be so responsive and cooing and smiling and then he can be so withdrawn.  You never know for sure what you will get.  You can do the same thing and one day he is bold face laughing and the next its like you aren't there.  We just keep trying to expose him to as much fun, stimulation and parts of life as we can.  The middle picture is him with a switch the school therapy brings in with them to the house.  He can push that button to turn on a tape player attached to it!  He does not always do it, but he can do it.  It is so exciting.  And you see him with a light board they have at the school that they bring for him to use.  We have discovered he can see red the best and of course things that are shiny and have alot of light he sees better.  

This is a shot from his private therapy one day!  He was batting 1000!  He actually SAW himself in the mirror and reacted!  That is a first!!! :)  and he is sitting up and not indian style! This was a first for that too!  See how hard he is working to stay up!  It looks like his eyes are closed in the picture but he is not asleep.  lol

Here are some other shots from therapy days! We are so blessed that he is doing so well and responding to everyone.  He really seems to like being 'worked with" :) 

Some more therapy shots.   See how strong he is getting!  And check out how LONG he is.  We measured him at the surgeons office this past thursday as best as we can by stretching him out and drawing on the paper and then measuring and he is 35 and half inches tall!  and he is 28 lbs!  I can't believe he is 3 years and almost 11 months!  Do you see him looking at Elmo!  He can see elmo most of the time!  He responds to him :)  That is why his party theme at the park next month is Elmo!  I am on the search for that specific elmo toy they have there.  It stretches!!  You pull the arms and legs on him.  Perfect for a little guy with cp who has to be stretched all the time!

Just some faces of Miah one day when he was very responsive :) 

and some playful faces of Noah.  He is so into having me take all kinds of "camra" with him.  LOL  he will tell me take my camra!  rather than picture!  too cute :)  one of them we are trying to get him to stick his tongue out.  

and here we are having some waiting room fun one day after his surgery!  look how he can move that tongue now!  He is so enthralled by it now! LOL  He still does not stick it out as far as most kids can but it is way improved.  I am wondering if he will be able to more and more as he learns how to use it now.  I will say that his speech has skirocketed since this surgery!  He has vocabulary now we had no clue he had.  I think the tongue had a great deal to do with his speech issues.  The other night he was here spending time with big sissy while I was at the gym I think, and she went to her room when I got here and Noah wanted to watch a show, I asked him where is the remote and he said, " We turned it off while you were gone to watch Celeste's puter and so its in her chair!"   I was like , well ok then!  heehee It was not totally clear but he said his version of all those words and I understood them all!  My mother is also able to understand him better now so that is good.   I am hoping he will continue to improve :)  

Here are some shots of Noah working hard in therapy!  It amazes me every day how he is learning and doing more and more.  

more therapy shots!  This boy loves to cook!  He is always serving everybody! :)  heehee


more waiting room fun! :)  in the bottom last pic he is watching the tv on the ceiling! heehee

Just some shots of Noah from this month!! He is so imaginative! :)  the tray of rocks is a cake just so you know! :)  heehee  Oh and he is holding up gifty he got in the mail from his friend Allie!  He gets soo excited to get mail, he doesnt care what it is but it makes him feel so special! :) 

And a few more of Miah.  He scared us Wednesday Night with a really scary seizure and then a few more smaller ones and so we were set to ER to see if there was an infection or something causing breakthrough seizures.  You can't always tell when he runs a fever because of his skin doesnt react like ours.  He will be having an MRI soon for something to do with his hypthalmus.  Anyway they said it could have been his constipation that caused it.  They really dont know.  We see Neuro in early March in Baton Rouge so anxious to have some questions answered we hope.  one of these is him looking at the RED mobile his speech therapy lady from the school made him! :)  and one is getting a preop xray.  He will be having surgery soon.  I will share more about that when we get the dates and all.  

Well, hopefully for anyone reading you have enjoyed this picture journal of our February.  I know there are a few more days left but thought I would get this done now while I could.  Lots going on this week.  We have IEP meeting for both boys tuesday.  Please be in prayer.  Previous meetings have NOT been fun and I am a little apprehensive about all this.  I am very thankful that the schools will come in and do things with them here at home so I am trying to not worry too much. And Wednesday is my 2 month measurments day for my journey to a better me!  God shook me up and made me realize I am gonna die If I do not get a handle on this soon on dec 29th.  So I do measurements each month on the 29th.  If you want to follow along and cheer me on along my journey check out my personal journey blog HERE!

Happy February all!

Monday, January 30, 2012

January at the Sisemore's.

Thought I would share a bit of what we have been up to in January :)

This past Saturday we attended the birthday party of Jeremiah's Nurse's son Cristian!  It was at a local party place here called Jumpin Jupiter.  They boys have been here before for just fun on half price day but never for a party. I am glad we went, they had fun but to me it was not run well at all and nowhere near worth what was charged and for a supposed stress free party it was not that at all.  My nurse is calling in to complain today.  I felt so bad when the teen running the party cut and passed out cake without letting them light the candle or sing to Cristian :(  just one of the many things not done the way they advertised.  Anyway if you are local and would like more details please email me and I will share. 

Jeremiah had fun too with all the laughter and joy of the other children and we did hold him up and let him jump in his way and also laid him down and bounced him a few times on the outer part of one of the jumpies. We worked on sitting and rolling on the paadded floor :)  He just seems to love to moved in ways that he could if he was able to take off like a typical baby.  

Noah will be having 2 surgeries this coming friday morning (Feb 3) for his ears and tongue.  Once all that is healed up he will have some more testing done and be fitted for his hearing aids.  
He had is CT scan done this past week and I was sooo proud of my sweet Panda Boy!  He was scared but did not throw a fit, he was still when we told him too and did an amazing job!!! I can see so many ways he is growing up!  In other ways he seems to be more babyish than he was even when I brought him home and want more comfort and rocking and loving in ways he never wanted them before.  I am trying to follow his lead and meet his needs in anyway I can and not think so much about his age.  

This past Sunday at Church during Children's worship they all prayed over Noah for his hearing and upcoming surgeries!  A friend took that picture for me and it so blessed my heart!  She also took the one on the bottom right of Noah praying over my friend Ronie during worship!  He has such a caring heart and he loves Ronie soooo much!  They have the sweetest relationship :)  She is a mamma of 4 boys so it is great having her in our life.  The top right is Noah at a birthday party this month for my friend Summer's little girl Ava.  Noah was so sweet and was stroking her hair as we sang Happy Birthday!  I just love his little heart for people!

Speaking of Noah's little heart! He is such an amazing big brother! Got these cute pics one day while waiting for the doctor to come in when both boys were needing to see her! :) 
Sometimes Noah is so cooperative with saying cheese and giving me a good smile!  Other days he will almost cry to avoid giving me a sweet picture!
Here are some shots this past Sunday Morning of Noah :)  He was in such a good mood and was dancing away to the Donut Man DVD that we had on at one point! :)  He has a very favorite epidode that he asks to watch over and over and over and over and over and I could go on again! lol  If you kids do Donut Man the episode he likes is Paul in a Basket which is like a special.  He loves them all but that one is his all time favorite!  He loves the song Faith , Hope, Love the best :)

Here are a few good shots of my sweet frogie boy!  :)  He is doing miraculously well as of late!  It is funny to me but about the time some folks seem to give up on him, he seems to have a spurt of doing amazing and showing us a thing or two! LOL  He is standing in his stander every day and doing really well with that.  Sometimes for over an hour at a time.  He is responding soo well to therapy and has so blessed my heart!  He is starting to sit up a bit more lately and he is rolling from time to time.  Eating is still an issue but he is eating some by mouth so we are prayerful he will resume like he was awhile back.  

Here are some cute shots of the babies in the tub playing! :)  Jeremiah is getting harder and harder to get in and out of the tub between his high tone and being so slippery and not able to help me at all! LOL  
Jeremiah had a swallow study done at the hospital the same morning that Noah had his CT scan.  It did not go as well as we hoped party because the test had to be delayed because someone dropped the ball and  forgot to schedule one of the people that had to be there for this to be done.  By the time they finally did the test he was asleep and we kept having to wake him up so he was drowsy and so was not as interested in eating or swallowing.  

Another big thing this month was a visit from my friend Charlotte! She has lost over 230 using weight watchers and working out and has been cheering me on and encouraging me.  It was so sweet of her to come down here just to meet me and encourage me and bless our family with a meal out and swimming and hanging out at her hotel!  As you can see from the collage a fun time was had by all! :)  If you are interested in following my journey to a better me please check out my blog and see how things are going and hear about my amazing fitness center and just be a cheerleader for me!  I NEED all the friends and support I can get!!! :)  

Here is the link to the other blog! :)  Join in and if you know anyone else who might like to follow along please share with them as well :)   TamiJoy's Journey to a better me!


THE WAIT FOR NOAH IS OVER!!!! November 3, 2007~September 8, 2008 First heard about Noah~Noah in our Arms!
AND NOW THE WAIT FOR JEREMIAH IS OVER TOO!!!
April 1, 2009~ June 7, 2010 First committed to Jeremiah~Jeremiah in our Arms!

The FIRST Picture we EVER saw!

The FIRST Picture we EVER saw!
Noah WesLee 5 months old

The First Picture we ever saw of:

The First Picture  we ever saw of:
Jeremiah Harold Sisemore ~1 year


Kisses in the Wind

KISSES IN THE WIND
I hold you in my heart and touch you in my dreams.
You are here each day with me, at least that's how it seems.

I know you wonder where we are... what's taking us so long.
But remember child, I love you so and God will keep you strong.

Now go outside and feel the breeze and let it touch your skin...Because tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God hold you in His hand until I can be with you.
I promise you, my darling, I'm doing all that I can do.

Very soon, you'll have a family for real, not just pretend.But for tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.


May God wrap you in His arms and hold you very tight.
And let the angels bring the kisses that I sent to you each night.


When Love Takes You In!