Not flesh of my flesh, nor bone of my bone; but, still miraculously, my own.
Never forget, for a single minute you didn't grow under my heart, but in it.

Saturday, May 22, 2010

from Rummage to Riches...well its a start anyway! :)

So I am PRAISING GOD for a beautiful breezy day for our Rummage Sale for Jeremiah at the wonderful Church parking lot that we were so blessed to be aloud to use!  And I am also praising God that we raised a profit of $380.20!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That brings us down to only $1069.80 we still need to raise before we leave in 1 week and 5 days!  CAN'T believe we leave in a week and 5 days!  That is 12 days!  I also can't believe we don't have all the money and we leave in 12 days, BUT MY GOD IS ABLE!  I am sooo waiting and watching to see how God is gonna show off next! Today HE so showed off! :)  It was a wonderful day and being MAY in Louisiana OUTSIDE could have been horrid, but placing us under a HUGE beautiful tree and providing the breeze made it just lovely! :)  PLEASE be praying for our LAST Plate Lunch Sale this coming Wednesday, we are having Chicken Spaghetti! :)  That is the hardest thing I make, but it has been most popular over both adoptions!  I already have 6 new orders from a friend at Church's job and another friend is getting orders at her job so I pray this is the biggest one we have done yet! :)  GOD IS ABLE!~  and then next saturday May 29th we are having a car wash at a Johnny's Pizza on Airline, that is the same busy road we had today's sale on so that is good too! :)  PRAYING for folks to help wash cars and folks to come in wanting cars washed, donations of soap, buckets, sponges, etc.!  Please keep us in prayer as we are raising these final funds, trying to come up with luggage we need to pack and all and get ready to leave in TWELVE DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  WOOHOOO and EEEEKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK  all in the same breath!!!!  I WILL NOT be afraid!  Well, ok, i wil be afraid but I WILL DO IT anyway and trust God!  now on to a few pictures of my sweet Panda Boy from our Rummage Sale!  He was so amazing today!  Made me so proud!
my beautiful Panda Boy!  The one who got me to get on a plane for the FIRST time in my life!!!!!  And now his baby brother is gonna make me do it again! :)  

Noah and his buddy James!  and he is looking up at Mrs. Kodi!  

they are so sweet together :)  

I need to find one of these toys for Noah with all its parts!  He loved it, spent alot of time sending easter eggs down the ramps!  LOL

I love to watch him play!

A sweet customer and part of the sign of the amazing and generous Church!

So this is what happens when a man works 12 hours with only 2 hours sleep before going to work, and THEN transports truck loads of rummage to a rummage sale and stays at the sale all the way till 2 oclock with his family!  MY AMAZING, though weird at times husband Bobby is just that kinda man!!

PART of the HUGE shade tree God gave us! :)

and What today was all about, my sweet frogie boy!

Jeremiah my angel, we are 12 days away from leaving, and 15 away from having you in our arms!  God is so incredible and showed off is SUCH a HUGE way today in helping us raise funds to bring you home little man!  We are just over $1000 away from what we need!  It has been a LONG 14 months of HARD work but you are MORE than worth it my sweet baby boy!  HOLD ON TIGHT little guy and I pray Jesus is whispering in your ear that Mommy, Daddy, Jei Jei and Ge ge are coming SOON!  We love you Jeremiah Harold Sisemore and will be there as soon as we can!  Until we get there, catch my kisses in the wind baby boy!

Friday, May 21, 2010

Rummage Sale 4 Jeremiah Sat. PLEASE PRAY!

Please pray for us tomorow!  We are despretly trying to raise our final $1500!!

SAT. 5/22/10
Trinity Presbyterian Church
1944 Airline Drive
Bossier City, LA 71112
Bring grocery bag! Clothes $5 bag full!
Clothes also for sale also individually.
A bit of everything! 2 much 2 list!
Many, Many are donating items to sell!
Come out as the community pulls together to help the Sisemore family bring home their sweet angel Jeremiah and get him help with his Severe Cerebral Palsy!
All proceeds go to The Sisemore Family's Adoption Trip Expenses 

Wednesday, May 19, 2010


Well, we are 2 weeks and a day away for getting on a plane and beginning the actual physical journey to Jeremiah.  If you had asked me 13 plus months ago if I thought we would be here right now I would NEVER have dreamed it would have taken so long, AND would NEVER in my worst dreams have believed we would be 2 weeks away and $1500 short!  and worse that I would not have ended up in the nut house over that fact!  It has really begun to hit me that no matter what Jeremiah is coming home!  FINALLY.  We are at this point.  It has been a very very stressful time and the past month or so has been beyond stressful with failed fundraiser and failed fundraiser and everthing breaking at once.  We FINALLY have a location for our Rummage Sale that is this Saturday May 22nd!  It was soo incredibly God!!!  It is like God the Father brought His hand down out of heaven and HAND picked a location on the BUSIEST street in our main city! What happened was after closed doors from our own Church and many other closed doors and things coming at my I called my dear friend Shonette on her cell phone CRYING!  Now Shonette is home just a few weeks with her beautiful AnnaKae from Ukraine and was in the place not too long ago trying to find a place for her benefit concert so I knew if anyone would understand all I was feeling it would be her.  So I called her and am sharing that our Church said no and this that and the other and she just so happens to be sitting in her van while her husband is taking care of some business in a bank that they are not normally do business with.  As she is sitting there and trying to talk me out of tree LOL  she looks up and sees Trinity Presbyterian Church across from her.  Now neither she nor I are Presbyterian nor do I know a thing about the denomination and had never heard of the Church so I am like HUH?  lol  So she says she is looking at the Church, it is close to a gas station in case we needed restroom and it is a big parking lot, so she is like Call them!  So, I get off and ask Bobby to look up the number and he finds it and calls them and leaves a message.  So a few hours later they called back and spoke with me and the gentleman said it just so happens that the Church board was going to be having a meeting that night and he would discuss it with them and let me know something last night or today.  Now we have had SOOO many no's for the rummage sale and bunco fundraiser that I was somewhat worried if the board had to meet about it, that it might not be good answer.  So anyway, last night about 7:30 or so he calls me back and nonchalantly says the board decided to let you use the parking lot for your rummage sale!  It took every ounce of restraint I had not to start hoopin and hollerin in his ear!  I thank him over and over :)  So, Ladies and Gentlemen we have a location!  Now, we are praying for helpers and vehicles to move all the stuff we have from here to there starting at 5:45 am when bobby gets home and being ready for business so to speak by 7am.  and its this saturday so not much time to pull this off but I HAVE to try and I HAVE to believe God will bless it! :)  This was such a great bit of news :)  I also got a letter in the mail letting us know Jeremiah's applicaion to Shriner's Children's Hospital has been accepted! :) AND they have an appointment for him Monday June 14th!!!  That is the monday after we get home on friday evening!  Such great news!!! :)

So you may wonder about the title of my post being Shackles!  It has been so very evident to me as of late how many more shackles of bondage I lived in for so many years have been broken off me Thank you LORD!  I think almost daily I have some more fall off!  It has been a HARD HARD HARD time lately and I have been questioning so many things in my life but when I think about all God has done for me and what He brought  me out of from childhood and everything since I stand amazed!  And then on top of that , that the Father of the Universe would CHOOSE me to be Noah and now Jeremiah's mother is about more than I can stand!  I think back to the shackles that bound me and I just am forever grateful to the Lord!  Tonight we had an evangelist at Church and he spoke about how the devil could NOT be where the worship of the Lord is! devil can't stand it.  I have been thinking about that every since and how for me WORSHIP is HOW I FEEL GOD!  Everybody is different, some feel God in a service that is predictible and specific prayers and responsive readings, some feel God by sitting under an amazing preacher, some feel God closest when they are in prayer closet just praying or interceeding.  All of those things are great things and God is so in them all, but for ME personally MUSIC alone moves me to my very soul no matter what kind.  I think for ME music if freeing so when you add GOD to MUSIC and then me being able to fall on face in the presence of the one true Gud and worship Him because of who HE IS well I am so there!  I can be having the hardest day, feeling like nobody on the planet cares if I am dead or alive and hop on youtube and search for worship songs and sing my heart out to the Lord and I am no longer alone.  HE IS RIGHT THERE!  HE broke the chains off me and gave me life, and live more abudantly!  :)  When I think of all my life was before I am so sad.  I have allowed my eyes to fall away from the LORD lately and rest on my circumstances and my flat out FEAR of how this is all gonna happen.  It is gonna happen because GOD is GOD!  HE has got this!  He is Jehovah Jirah!  MY PROVIDER!  I HAVE to get this $1500 and GOD knows who has the funds to send our way.  I WILL TRUST HIM!  I am in awe of all that God has done so far in this adoption and in Noah's and in my life  even to be at the point that I have a husband and am adoptiong children! :)  I dont feel like I am explaining anything corectly here but I just felt like I needed to share all of this and I have put a few song on here too that are close to my heart right now and I hope you will take a few minutes to share them with me!  Please pray for me as I seek to stay in a state of worship!  and to remember to be on my knees and if necessary on my face before the LORD and to release my fear of what my eyes see!

Sunday, May 16, 2010

2 weeks and 4 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We leave for Taiwan in 2 weeks and 4 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I am Excited, Scared, Nervous, Overjoyed, and beside myself to say the least!  No, we have not even started packing!  I am overwhelmed with that because of the fact of $25 EACH way EACH bag. That's $50 PER BAG we take!  wow!  It can't be helped because basically we are taking a domestic flight that is NOT connected to the international, hence we have to pay.  Luggage costs are not even figured into our budget.  I am trying to figure out how to pack carryons we have , where to get a couple more carryons we can take and make sure that they all fit in the plane, if not they will MAKE us check them and that would be WORSE.  So being all stressed by this I have not done anything, well time is running out and I HAVE to deal with it.

I am still working on the Nursery and making it Frogie as well as Noah's Ark and panda!  LOL  Maybe wild kindgom is a better name! :)  So much to do in there and all over the house to be ready for Jeremiah to come home!  And remebering coming home with Noah and HOW useless I was for so long between jet lag and HIS needs I know things have to be PERFECT to go a good while with me not able to do much or anything other than care for BOYS!!!

And the fact that we are still fundraising and trying to plan fundraisers and find locations and and and  is NOT helping!  Someone said on my facebook I needed to stop and rest for trip.  UMM HELLO, without $1500 bare minimum (not counting whatever it costs to check luggage), we  have no clue how we will do this.  I mean even if we slept in airport and didnt eat, which I am thinking would not please Taiwan at all that we take him from an orphanage and sleep in an airport!  Well, it would only be for the Taipei end of things, Tainan hotel is paid for.  What we lack is Taipei hotel, train to and from, cabs, busses ,etc in country, food, Gas in our van to and from Dallas, parking or cab fare from where we park the van, whichever comes out better and works out, etc.  So basically WE HAVE to raise these funds!  There is no choice!  I KNOW GOD IS ABLE!  I know that God has shown off with Noah's adoption and He has made every step thus far happen and HE WILL show off for this final leg!  I KNOW IT!  So, then WHY am I scared?  why am I crying?  Why am I nervous?  because it hasn't happend yet, because it is so close, because everything we try seems to blow up in our face.  Across the world waits a little boy who despretly needs a family to love him, to care for him, to take him to doctors, therapists, hosptials, you name it.  Who needs to know he is loved whether he ever walks, talks, feeds himself, dresses himself or even hugs us back.  Whatever his future entails he is our son and we can't wait to get him in our arms and begin life!  I battle HUGE GUILT for letting this child down and he has not even been placed in my arms yet.  It has been 13 plus months of fundraising.  He has had to sit and wait, wait for a mommy to be able to pick him up when he cries from sadness, hunger, fear, an itch, teething, whatever.  It took us soo long to raise the agency fees and he waited.  During that time frame another family with money could have come forward and adopted him but they didnt and so we KNEW even more that God was holding him for us.  We are so close and yet so far.  MONEY has been what stood in the way the entire time!  I HATE MONEY!  And I can't figure out why it is so hard for me to raise the money for Jeremiah, I have managed to help other adopting families raise money, to raise money to take oodles of kiddos to Church camp when their own parents wouldn't sit out and help them fundraise, but here I am in need for my SON and I keep loosing money at fundraisers!  I just keep praying and basically falling on my face at the feet of Jesus!  All I can figure is it is preparation for the hardness of caring for Jeremiah that is coming.  The fighting for the best doctors, the best therapist, the equipment, and whatever he is gonna need in this life.  He may never be able to fight for himself and so it will be up to us to get better and better at providing all his needs and doing whatever it takes to do that.  So, maybe this is my training ground for that.  I just know that this hurts more than anything to be so close and yet so far.  To KNOW we have to board that plane and go and HAVE to have this money.  I must be insane, to fight and work so hard for 13 plus months to then have to FLY on planed over the ocean which PETREFIES ME no end!  I thought after last time I would NOT be scared, NOPE more scared this time and already sick at tummy about it!  As scared as I am I can't wait to see how God bridges the ocean to bring Jeremiah home! :)

Jeremiah my sweet frogie boy!  It is only 2 weeks and 4 days till be board a plane and come to get you!  I can't believe God has blessed us by allowing a judge in Taiwan to see us fit to be your parents!  You are LEGALLY our Son and we have never met you in person but oh how we have met and love you in our hearts!!!!  There are so many people that keep telling me they can't wait to see you in my arms!  OH BOY what a waited for picture that is!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)  Hang on just a while longer little angel boy and while you wait, catch my kisses in the wind!!!!!!!!!!!!
THE WAIT FOR NOAH IS OVER!!!! November 3, 2007~September 8, 2008 First heard about Noah~Noah in our Arms!
April 1, 2009~ June 7, 2010 First committed to Jeremiah~Jeremiah in our Arms!

The FIRST Picture we EVER saw!

The FIRST Picture we EVER saw!
Noah WesLee 5 months old

The First Picture we ever saw of:

The First Picture  we ever saw of:
Jeremiah Harold Sisemore ~1 year

Kisses in the Wind

I hold you in my heart and touch you in my dreams.
You are here each day with me, at least that's how it seems.

I know you wonder where we are... what's taking us so long.
But remember child, I love you so and God will keep you strong.

Now go outside and feel the breeze and let it touch your skin...Because tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God hold you in His hand until I can be with you.
I promise you, my darling, I'm doing all that I can do.

Very soon, you'll have a family for real, not just pretend.But for tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God wrap you in His arms and hold you very tight.
And let the angels bring the kisses that I sent to you each night.

When Love Takes You In!