Not flesh of my flesh, nor bone of my bone; but, still miraculously, my own.
Never forget, for a single minute you didn't grow under my heart, but in it.

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Happy October

Happy October all!  Today we will have Jeremiah's Belated First and Second Birthdays party! :)  I am excited and PRAYERFUL he will enjoy and do well :)  Thought I would share some pics with yall and update on my ct scan.  NO OBSTRUCTION found so that is good :)  Diverticulosis is NOT infected so that is NOT what is causing my pain and such.  Soo..another specialist on Tuesday and we see what she says! 

now for what you really want :)  pics :)
Noah climbing up on Jeremiah in my lap :)  He is so beautiful :)  and looking so OLD to me, and not babyish :( 
his smile lately is so funny :)  its like he is trying to eat his lip :)  lol

 I know its a weird shot but for some reason I just love it :)

love this one too :)  kinda hard to get a good shot when he is climbed up on me :) 

blurry but so cute :)

blurry from movement but laughin at me last night during supper at Chic Fil A

in such a cute mood :)

more momma!  I LOVE it when he is smiley and opens his mouth for me to get spoon in :)

kinda gross cuz can see food in mouth but soo cute :)

we are a messy eater.  BUT not too bad considering Mommy forgot the bib. 

that looks so nasty on the spoon in this picture :) 

was trying to get a picture of him actually eating but hard to do while feeding and taking picture one handed, but you can see him opening mouth and spoon going in sorta

Getting kinda loud in our cooing :)

love this smirk

so funny, like he will be smiling huge and I grab my phone and sometimes he stops!  LOL 

Noah excited we are going to wal-mart!  Mamma did NOT have such an excitement! LOL

Tummy time :)  He stayed this way for a GOOD while and eventually fell asleep :)  It was good to keep him off his back and hiney for so long.  I need to find more and more things to help support him on tummy so he will enjoy it more. 

Noah with Elmo, Buddy, and Raf!! Buddy the panda that he got before Taiwan to get J and took with us has really become a buddy he wants alot :)  He is so funny with him :)

not smiling but LOVE this picture :)

sitting up in the exersaucer!  NOTHING propping him up :)  He did it for a good 10 minutes before he leaned back :)  buidlig strength in that back :)

so sweet :)

so beautiful but blurry

climbing up on me

i hate that HUGE smile is so blurry

another blurry :(

a tad clearer :) sometimes the boys look so much alike to me :)

off to finish lunch and get Noah down too, Jeremiah is already napping.  Gotta have 2 happy rested boys for the PARTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

2 1/2 and CT SCAN for Tami

So today Jeremiah is 2 and 1/2 years old!  We decided we are celebrating his 1st and 2nd birthdays that we missed with him while he was waiting in Taiwan when he was 2 1/2 because 1/2 has 1 and 2 in it!  LOL  dumb reason but there ya go :)  The party will be this Saturday and I will put the invitation up again and we would love if some of our blog followers would surprise us and show up :)  It i slooking like a very tiny party unless things change which makes me sad, but we are going to party anyway :)  I made a few things in honor of the occasion :)
I hope you can read it all :)  If not I think if you click it, it will become bigger so  you can :)  The pic that says I'm 2 and a half is NOW, the one beside is the  youngest picture we have of Jeremiah, just out of NICU, the one in orange on bottom is the closest to his first birthday and the next one is closest to his 2nd birthday. :) 

THIS was what I made on his actual 2nd birthday while he was in Taiwan :)  The big picture was the most recent I had at the time (from January though it was march 29th) I took that same program and made one for now below :)  I hope you will open it.  It is not long but has some cute pics and such and some you have never seen :)  I am having such fun with the disk of pics from SLC that I didnt get to really spend alot of time with going straight to ICU. I am so praying to someday print EVERY picture on both the boys CD's and put them in albums! :)  I have that as TOPS on my Christmas list though not sure what is going on for Christmas but I can still wish! LOL

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Jeremiah my sweet frogie boy!  I am in awe of God that you are even here with us and for the incredible blessing you are to me!  You amaze me constantly by the things you do especially when the Doctor has such a bad prognosis for you and seems to believe you won't do anything.  You are smiling and laughing more and more and it sure seems like to me at times you are doing it because you are happy and loved :)  Sometimes I will talk to you and you coo back at me just like you were talking :)  Your tight muscles are still giving us fits but at times you are getitng looser.  Mommy is frustrated because she feels you are tighter than you were when we picked you up and the American docs changed your level of Balcofen and mommy thinks you might need more or something different.  You KNOW when you are being held and that is amazing to me.  There are days lately where you are happy NOWHERE except my arms!  I want to tell the docs, SEE!  HE KNOWS ME!  I just know in my heart you do.  At times I will start to talk in a room to someone and you willl start smiling and kicking your legs! :)  Makes my heart swell all over my body! :)  You do NOT like tummy time and at times will flip over onto your back to get out of it :)  so cute and frustrating :)  heehee  But amazing that you can do it even some times.  You love the stander at therapy and tolerate it amazingly well!  You have been in the gait trainer and brought tears to mommy's eyes!  I so pray so many things for you my sweet boy and I hope you will do them all, but most of all I pray you will be happy and FEEL our love.  I know in my mind what that the docs say your chances of survival are none, but my mamma's heart so can't grasp onto that and I CHOOSE to have FAITH that you will grow up.  I find myself thinking HOW am I gonna do this or that when Jeremiah is older and BIGGER!  lol  I can't wait to have to figure it all out my sweet amazing frogie.  Every second of every day with you is a blessing.  I promised the Lord in that hospital room that I would do all I could to give you the best life possible!  I am TRYING little man.  SO HARD.  I am so thankful God allowed you to live and get out of ICU and come home with us.  You so stretch me and my abilities and I so love it :)  My heart just swells with pride and amazement at you each day.  Your big brother adores you and tries so hard to include you in everything!  It is hard for him sometimes to understand that you right now can't do all the things and can't eat all the things he does!  I am thrilled he loves you and that you respond so well to him :)  Your big sister calls you her lovey!  And love you she does.  I KNOW her as a young woman of faith and she prays for you daily little frogie and what a blessing for you that she does :)  Your daddy love you sweet boy.  He will sing to you in such a way that tears literaly spring to my eyes.  You have touched all our lives in such an amazing way :)  WE LOVE YOU! :)

Took this just a few minutes ago :)  He got tickeled about something! :)  lol  I had worried when he had these times that he might be having laughing seizures but his eyes are not fixed and they move around when he does it.  The Neuro said he would have emotional unstability because of only having a brain stem so he thinks that is why he does that.  But at times I KNOW he is laughing and cooing at us :) But here he is in his own world finding something funny :)

Please keep me in prayer tonight and tomorow.  I have to have a CT scan tomorow and have to drink a bunch of yucky stuff tonight and tomorow and have an amazingly BAD gag reflex so I am so worried.  Also, PLEASE pray for Bobby to do well alone with Jeremiah and Noah while I am in getting the scan done and PLEASE pray for me not to worry myself sick about my babies!

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Jeremiah had an early first bday party AT SLC and bawling

So I am going through pictures on the disk form St. Lucy's that I really have not looked at in depth because of our stint in ICU and all when we came home.  I am trying to get some things together for a party we are having Saturday and saw this picture of a birhtday party Jeremiah had jointy for his first birthday.  It was in his birth month but not on his birthday, like a few weeks early.  I am not sure if all the babies in this picture were having a birthday but I think so.  They would have been one around March 2009.  I am wondering who these babies are and who their mommies are so I could get ot know Jeremiah's friends :)  I was told party with friends :)  One little girl I am curious if I know her family :)  If you recognize your baby let me know :)

Also I am bawling seeing our pics in his crib!  I had so hoped they would do this.  I know they say he can't see, but at times he acts as if he can.  I have to believe he saw us at least some :)

THE WAIT FOR NOAH IS OVER!!!! November 3, 2007~September 8, 2008 First heard about Noah~Noah in our Arms!
April 1, 2009~ June 7, 2010 First committed to Jeremiah~Jeremiah in our Arms!

The FIRST Picture we EVER saw!

The FIRST Picture we EVER saw!
Noah WesLee 5 months old

The First Picture we ever saw of:

The First Picture  we ever saw of:
Jeremiah Harold Sisemore ~1 year

Kisses in the Wind

I hold you in my heart and touch you in my dreams.
You are here each day with me, at least that's how it seems.

I know you wonder where we are... what's taking us so long.
But remember child, I love you so and God will keep you strong.

Now go outside and feel the breeze and let it touch your skin...Because tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God hold you in His hand until I can be with you.
I promise you, my darling, I'm doing all that I can do.

Very soon, you'll have a family for real, not just pretend.But for tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God wrap you in His arms and hold you very tight.
And let the angels bring the kisses that I sent to you each night.

When Love Takes You In!