Not flesh of my flesh, nor bone of my bone; but, still miraculously, my own.
Never forget, for a single minute you didn't grow under my heart, but in it.

Saturday, December 19, 2009

HORRIBLE DAY.. I think I wll ELF us...

Horrible day at the sale :( Worse than I could ever imagine. We are all kinda in a sad shock state right now, but thankful for what we did sale, and PRAYERFUL for tomorow to bring MUCH BETTER SALES! At least to make back what we have put into it. Needing to veg and get mind off it all. So I elfed us!

Send your own ElfYourself eCards

Friday, December 18, 2009

UPDATE!!!!! Does a body good!

The timing today was AMAZING of finally getting the update Phootos that my Agency's Rep took last month while in Taiwan!  Also a VIDEO!  It is short but it is a video :)  WOOOHOOO

Isn't he the most gorgeous thing! :)  My mom thinks Jeremiah really looks like Noah in this picture!  What do you think?

awww so sleepy!  In the Video you can hear they just woke him up.

I am SOOOO THRILLED that he is OUTSIDE!!  So thankful that doctor that ask them to give him outdoor time! :)  The fresh air and sunshine has to be good for him! :) 

There was no nursery or medical update this time.  At last notice he is 20 lbs., head and height have not changed.

My sweet frogie boy!  Mama so loves you and misses you.  I can't WAIT to hold you in my arms.  :)  We have been working so hard on this weekend's fundraiser and new pictures of you just really gives us a lift! :)  Praying this weekend is an amazing fundriaser and another step closer to our coming to get you.  I am reading alot about ways to be a good mommy to you and help you with things when you get home. I can't wait to have the chance.  We love you sweet man, hold on and soak up that fresh air and sunshine and be a sweet baby boy and catch my kisses in the wind tonight!

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Sharing...please read.

I wanted to post today and share a bit about how I have been feeling.  This adoption journey for Jeremiah is about so much more than me, and my desire to have a son, to care for a baby boy who so needs and deserves the loving arms of a family.  Not that those things are not happening or aren't important but it is about so much more.  It is about me coming to a new place of trust with the Lord.  About me realizing HE IS ALL I NEED!  Alot has happend in and through Noah's adoption and then we felt led to go for Jeremiah and at the time that leading was happening we were feeling led to leave our Church where I had been a member for over 8 years.  A place full of people at one time I so looked up to, and was to be honest dependent upon.  There were many reasons God moved our family from that Church but I will say it was a VERY painful and difficult thing to go through and more than 8 months later I am still dealing with it.  By dear friends I would have jumped in front of a bus for I was accused of leaving for deceitful and cruel reasons.  That the adoption in some way had something to do with it, and on and on when the various acusations.  It is funny to me because the timing of leaving my entire support system was HORRIBLE.  What nut would leave that when beginning an adoption journey where you would need prayer support, physical support, emotional support and such, but you add to that an adoption of a little guy who is sooo severely needy and that I will so need support as we bring him into our lives and love him and help him be all he can be.  That was the dumbest time on the planet to leave BUT it was the time we were to go.  I dont understand everything but I know the Lord sees all.  I would NEVER have believed following what we felt God was telling us would cost me everyone and everything.  I have had to come to terms with that at this point all I can believe is that most of the relationships I held so dear were conditional on my being in that Church and doing what they wanted and believed I should.  THAT was hard to come to realize.  BUT, in the midst of it all I am realizing that GOD is my all and all.  I need to lay all the pain down at HIS FEET!  One of my biggest fears in life is not having anyone, no friends, feeling like noone gives a care.  I am so blessed that even though I lost this day to day support I have been so blessed with a dear friend of 20 years who even though we do not see each other often, she is a phone call away, a couple restored relationships that are much healthier now than they were before, and an amazing group of online friends and others who live far off and we are in a Church full of amazing people and the opportunity for many friendships to come I PRAY!  My life is full.  And I do not have to buy the friendships I do have. And those to come I pray will be the same and very healthy ones.  God has been workin on me to allow him to heal me of so much pain.  I think when I went through the rejection because of following God that I put up bigger walls than I had ever put up before.   It is hard to open up and trust now.  I look at how things are going to change when Jeremiah comes home and at the unknowns of that but I can trust my Heavenly Father that He will help us with all we need.  My fears are another area that God is working on us.  Fear of the plane ride to come!  Y'all I would do anything to avoid getting on those planes again!  I thought once I flew I would conquer the fear for good but NOPE.  I dont mind the domestic flight to bad but that LONG international one where we dropped altitude and had such bad turbulence over Japan I am petrefied off.  I need to TRUST HIM and go on.  And then their is the fear of the money.  I know you all know that we are fundraising to bring Jeremiah home.  The financial end of things is why it is taking so long.  It is much harder fundraising this time than last, several grants are no longer available, loans are no longer available that we could get and alot we can't because of our situation.  Anyway, having to raise all this money and it taking so long scares me to death.  I am so worried about where it is coming from, but it is NOT my place to worry.  God will speak to His people.  Folks have been amazing and I know they donate when they can, do our giveaways when they can etc.  Even the $2 that those who have done the puzzle fundraiser help!  Believe me!  I have to trust God and He has already shown off and I can't wait to see how He will show off next in this!  It is not about me, or how hard I can work, or anything, it is about Him!  And I also have to lay down my worry for how long Jeremiah is waiting.  As I watch his hands contract up, and hear of medecines and different things and I think I am letting him down because it is taking so long  BUT I have to remember that GOD IS ABLE!  He owns the cattle on a thousand hills.  If He had wanted that money would have arrived in one lump sum 8 months ago, but that is not how God chose to do it.  He needed to increase my Faith, He needed to teach me things, whatever but I have to TRUST that He knows the date and hour we will be told to be there, he KNOWS that we need authentification fees, orphange donation, plane tickes, hotel rooms, train tickets, food, etc.  He knows.  Twice recently a young woman in our Church has led worship with a specific song.  BOTH times I have bawled my eyes out before the Lord during that song.  A gentleman in our Church put one of those times on you tube and so I have it hear to share with you.  PLEASE push play and listen.  Our Pastor speaks a minute before she starts singing.  Please do listen to the song and hear my cry to the Lord!  Even if you do not know the Lord and do not believe, please listen because it will show you a bit about what all this long post meant.  If you read this far, THANK YOU!!!!   PLEASE keep me in prayer and my sweet frogie boy!  And please keep the fundraising in prayer  We have a 2 day fundraiser at a local shop till you drop Sale this weekend.  PLEASE pray we do not loose money, that we will make something!  And please pray for our other fundraising coming up.  Here is the song.  Please let me know if any of this makes sense.

Monday, December 14, 2009


GOD IS ABLE!!!  Thank the Lord they let us do the fingerprints!  It was very touch and go for a bit but it worked out thank the Lord! :)  We left early because I just could not wait any longer  and we got into the building fine!  Someone had told me they could not get in the building without the letter but luckily we were not asked for them at that point.  We got to the office where we were to go and I told them we had left them at home and they were like that is a HUGE PROBLEM!  I burst into tears!  I explained we had traveled over 3 hours and stayed in a hotel the night before, my elderly mom had just had hip surgery recently and was not going to be able to make the trip again as was their any way they possibly could figure this out.  So the lady gets on the compuer, pulls up our appointment letters, prints them in black and white on xerox paper and gives them to us!  PROBLEM SOLVED!  One by one they took us back and did them! :)  We were done at outside loading up by 10 am, which was our first appointment time!  I was almost jumpin up and down! :)  God is so wonderful.  I have to send another copy of my and my mom's birth certificate for some reason they did not like the copy that was in with our homestudy and then we just pray and wait!  And FUNDRAISE like crazy!  We have 3 days to get everything ready for this weeks BIG SALE at the Civic Center.  PLEASE pray we can get it all done and that our sonic cards arrive in time!

Here are a few pictures from the day :)

This was just adorable to me :)  Noah was copying Daddy reading the paper! :)  heehee

This was a smile and just as the camera went off he sneezed!  LOL

Big fork, little mouth!  lol

do you see the food on the table again?  I am not sure what is up with this little Panda boy.  He keeps taking food OFF the plate and putting on the table and then getting it on fork or picking up with hand and eating it. 

Jeremiah Sweetie!  I anxiously await new pictures and play around with the ones we have as I sit and dream of being able to feed you myself.  We are eating stew tonight and I am wondering if you will like stew!  I wonder what your smile looks like in person, do your eyes crinkle when you smile.  What will it be like to see you smile at me?  I wonder if you will be a good eater or if I will have to work at getting you to eat for me.  I wonder how your little body will feel leaning against me as you are this nanny here.  I wonder what you will think of your brother and sister. I can imagine you laughing at Noah and his antics and I wonder what your little laugh sounds like.  This was such a great day to have our fingerprints done and be a step closer to you buddy!!  This entire week will be about getting ready for a BIG fundraiser for YOU :)  I love you with all my heart and I can't wait to hold you and bring you home into our lives forever.  Hold on frogie boy and catch my kisses in the wind!

Sunday, December 13, 2009

hotel boogie 12/13/09 at

We are in Jackson for our fingerprint appointments tomorow and I wanted to share a bit of fun from tonight and yesterday as well :) PLEASE pray for us tomorow at the Fingerprint appointments. We FORGOT the appointment letters it said to bring with us! They are hours away at home. PLEASE pray they do them anyway. We can't afford to travel back and stay in hotel again plus my mom would not do well with another trip and she lives with us and has to have them done for that reason. PRAY please! Also opinions. We are gonna do another giveaway. We thougth 2 cards this time to give 2 folks a chance to win. One will be to Chilli's but can also be used at macaroini grill, mazzios and somewhere else but cant remember just now. anyway, any ideas on where to have anotehr card to??

Jeremiah sweet frogie boy. We are all excited and have you so heavy on our minds tonight as we get to have a huge step towards your coming home taken care for tomorow. Mama so hopes it all goes well and our forgetfullness does not cause one more second of delay in your coming home. I love you baby boy. Catch my kisses in the wind baby!

THE WAIT FOR NOAH IS OVER!!!! November 3, 2007~September 8, 2008 First heard about Noah~Noah in our Arms!
April 1, 2009~ June 7, 2010 First committed to Jeremiah~Jeremiah in our Arms!

The FIRST Picture we EVER saw!

The FIRST Picture we EVER saw!
Noah WesLee 5 months old

The First Picture we ever saw of:

The First Picture  we ever saw of:
Jeremiah Harold Sisemore ~1 year

Kisses in the Wind

I hold you in my heart and touch you in my dreams.
You are here each day with me, at least that's how it seems.

I know you wonder where we are... what's taking us so long.
But remember child, I love you so and God will keep you strong.

Now go outside and feel the breeze and let it touch your skin...Because tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God hold you in His hand until I can be with you.
I promise you, my darling, I'm doing all that I can do.

Very soon, you'll have a family for real, not just pretend.But for tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God wrap you in His arms and hold you very tight.
And let the angels bring the kisses that I sent to you each night.

When Love Takes You In!