Not flesh of my flesh, nor bone of my bone; but, still miraculously, my own.
Never forget, for a single minute you didn't grow under my heart, but in it.

Saturday, September 11, 2010

Meet me in the Stairwell!

Meet Me in the Stairwell

You say you will never forget where you were when you heard the news on September 11th, 2001.

Neither will I...

I was on the 110th floor in a smoke filled room with a man who called his wife to say "Good-bye." I held his fingers steady as he dialed. I gave him the peace to say, "Honey, I am not going to make it, but it is OK...I am ready to go."

I was with his wife when he called as she fed breakfast to their children. I held her up as she tried to understand his words and as she realized he wasn't coming home that night.

I was in the stairwell of the 23rd floor when a woman cried out to Me for help. "I have been knocking on the door of your heart for 50 years!" I said. "Of course I will show you the way home - only believe in Me now."

I was at the base of the building with the Priest ministering to the injured and devastated souls. I took him home to tend his Flock in Heaven. He heard my voice and answered.

I was on all four of those planes, in every seat, with every prayer. I was with the crew as they were overtaken. I was in the very hearts of the believers there, comforting and assuring them that their faith has saved them.

I was in Texas, Kansas, London. I was standing next to you when you heard the terrible news. Did you sense Me?

I want you to know that I saw every face. I knew every name - though not all know Me...Some met Me for the first time on the 86th floor.

Some sought Me with their last breath. Some couldn't hear Me calling to them through the smoke and flames; "Come to Me...this way...take my hand."

Some chose, for the final time, to ignore Me. But, I was there.

I did not place you in the Tower that day. You may not know why, but I do. However, if you were there in that explosive moment in time, would you have reached for Me?

September 11th, 2001, was not the end of the journey for you.

But someday your journey will end. And I will be there for you as well. Seek Me now while I may be found. Then, at any moment, you know you are "ready to go."

I will be in the stairwell of your final moments.

Remember: I love you…


Written by: Stacey Randall

I saw this on my friend Renee's blog and I snitched it! I did tell her I was doing so in her comments and am linking yall to her blog too. I just couldn't NOT put it here! I have a post on my heart to share and ask advise and questions and things but TODAY is NOT the day for that. I will wait.

May God touch the lives today of those still struggling with the events of that day.  May HE Father the children born after their Father's were killed.  May HE bring peace to those who STILL are afraid, who still remember that fear, and still have confusion.  May HE remind us all what we felt that day when we get upset over silly things.  Be grateful for each person in your life, because you just never know.  And if you do not yet know the Lord, think about if you had been in that stairwell, would you have wanted Him then?

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

TWO YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THANK YOU GOD!

Well, I started bawling as I typed the title!  I am in shock in some ways that at 9pm tonight Louisiana time it will be Sept 8th at 10 in Taiwan!  TWO YEARS exactly since our Gotcha Day and Time for Noah!  We actually probably did not see him for about 30 minutes after our time to be there but that was the time set.  I am amazed at all the changes in Noah!  Here is us THEN:

Taiwan Time Sept 8, 2008

This is today!  what a funny smile and he has his head goofy lol  He has grown and changed alot. 

and here are our bloopers, though most today seemed to be bloopers :) lol

Noah was 16 and half months on Gotcha Day.  Today he is 3 years and 4 and half months old.  He weighs 32 pounds and is 37 inches tall!  In summer rompers and shorts and things he is wearing 24 months and 2t!  He has long legs so will need 3t for fall with long pants!  The child that did not talk or even babble when we picked him up now talks and talks.   Granted he is still delayed across the board, and his speech is the most delayed but he is talking and trying to say most words, or Noahese anyway!  his version there off.  He is sweet, funny, loving, cuddly, and tries to be helpful MOST of the time. We do still battle sensory and temper problems.  He adores his little brother though definitly gets jealous of ANYONES time with mommy especially.  He doesn't get angry at the one taking my time but at ME!  He is amazing at puzzles, and he can match colors very well.  He can actually match most things, I think that is part of his OCD which he seriously has.  He is a hoot when he realizes something matches.  He is VERY IN TO "tucks" !!  and ANYTHING with wheels in his mind is a TUCK!  one day he was on the floor playing with the Tucks and one happend to be a van and he all of sudden gets all excited, jumps up and RUNS to the glass door and is pointing outside and then at the little van.  Basically it hit him that it was the same as my van!  lol The only things that have a name other than TUCK are choochoo's which he loves and BUS!  also which he will SCREAM when he sees any of hte three!  quite upsetting when you are driving down the interstate!  I am getting used to it now and dont jump quite so high!  LOL  He is a very very picky eater, and there is no rhyme nor reason to what he wants and when an dhow.  one day he is thrilled with something and the next screams if you give him that.  It is quite frustrating.  He all of a sudden LOVES baths and will play all over the tub.  It came out of the blue where one day we screamed still and the next we loved it!  He is very into animals of any kind and BALLS!  He loves the Wiggles, Barney and Elmo!  He will watch veggie tales and likes it while they sing but the rest of the story time he is not so into it right now, but I think it will come.  He is MR. Personality.  We go to doctors offices and things for Jeremiah and Noah prances in ahead of us and waving and saying hi and all the staff is like HI NOAH!  they love him to death!  He is extrememly comfortable at the hospital now after living up ther ewith Jeremiah at first.  We go there for therapy and you would think he is at home :)  He charmed the entire hospital staff when we were staying there.  ESPECIALLY the food service ladies.  One night they started bringing him an icee every night when they delivered trays.  Then a bit later it started being and ICEE and a bag of chips, and then eventually an Icee, bag of chips and an ice cream sandwhich.  LOL  NOW, you know where the 32 lbs came from !  LOL  He is still doing therapy.  He has outgrown early steps and mommy has cried MANY a tear over loosing our amazing therapist of Early Steps.  He now has a teacher from school board that comes for an hour one morning a week and then 30 minutes of speech (this is upsetting to mommy feeling he needs way more) and 30 minutes of adaptive physical education.  Starting at some point this month he will go to the hospital for Occupational Therapy.  I am thrilled that he is going to get to do this and am prayerful it will help with some sensory things and such.  We are doing lap school several mornings a week with mommy and he is soo smart and loves it :)  We are involved in a local playgroup and try to do things with them when they are close enough by we can :)  He is very into the Park lately.  We have a really nice one not too far away but no swings.  We have to drive to another town for that and I am sad about that cuz not as often can we do that.  I am praying to get a swingset soon! :)  He is a very dancy boy and still loves music!  We sing alot! :) 

It amazes me to think that I have had this amazing creature in my life for only 2 years, and yet that it has only been 2 years!  I will FOREVER be grateful to his birthmother and to St. Lucy Center for giving me this amazing child of my heart! For so long I blew him kisses in the wind and now I can kiss and hug and snuggle with him all the time! :)  God is so amazing and Adoption is a wonderful way to build a family! :)  I can't even begin to express how much I love that boy!  As of late I have been asked alot of questions that seem to get my goat. For instance, Are they really brothers!  YES OF COURSE!  oh so they are biologicaly connected. well, no but they are brothers!  So where is there "REAL MOM"?  that one gets me bad, like because I did not birth them from my body I am not real.  Am I fake??  I know wha tthey mean and am not really sure WHY it upsets me so but I try to say something about each of their birth mothers had different situations that led to the boys being free for adoption.  Also things like, "ohh, so you adopted him"  YES, and I am totally blessed to have! :)  As I said Adoption is an amazing thing!  I will leave you with some more random pics of Panda Boy!

Panda Boy!  Mommy loves you more than you will ever know.  I gaze at your face in pictures, as you sleep, as you grin silly at me, even when you are pitching a fit and I so love that face in all its expressions.  I will NEVER be able to thank God enough for giving you to me, my baby boy!  My first son!  I waited soooo long for you.  I had dreamed of a baby for years and years before we even began an adoption journey.  A friend spoke to me at one point and said God told her that I would have the child of my heart!  Little boy, YOU definitly are of my heart!  I could not be more pleased and proud of you.  I worry that I am not a good enough mommy, I worry that I dont get the message across to you how loved and cared about your are.  I PRAY you know somehow and always will.  YOU, Noah WesLee Sisemore are one of the BEST gifts I ever have received!  I LOVE YOU!

Monday, September 6, 2010


Hi All,  I wanted to get this posted tonight because tomorow night is an important anniversary for a certain little boy, but anyway for now I wanted to share this amazing button a friend made for me for Jeremiah!  As most of you know the prognosis for survival we have been given is NOT good, BUT we KNOW God is ABLE and the Great Physician.  I am asking all my friends that will to please grab this button and put it on your blogs, websites, facebook or whatever you can.  Please help spread the word about Jeremiah!  Even if you are not a praying person but you care and will be thinking about Jeremiah then please put it up for us, and perhaps some folks that are praying folks will see it.  We need ALL the prayer, good thoughts, and good wishes we can get on this journey with Jeremiah!  I can't tell you what a blessing this little guy is to us and it definitly is making me appreciate every second of every day with everybody.  All our days are numbered and noone is promised tomorow, but when you have been told to be watching for a close end to his days it is so difficult.  I am PRAYING for a Miracle, PRAYING to prove the docs wrong and have them shaking their heads in confusion of HOW is the little guy living and doing all he is :)  Anyway, here is the amazing button and it is also in the sidebar!  And while you are praying PLEASE pray too for my friend Beth's son Manny!  They need a miracle as well!

Be sure to right click on the box below and then select all.

THE WAIT FOR NOAH IS OVER!!!! November 3, 2007~September 8, 2008 First heard about Noah~Noah in our Arms!
April 1, 2009~ June 7, 2010 First committed to Jeremiah~Jeremiah in our Arms!

The FIRST Picture we EVER saw!

The FIRST Picture we EVER saw!
Noah WesLee 5 months old

The First Picture we ever saw of:

The First Picture  we ever saw of:
Jeremiah Harold Sisemore ~1 year

Kisses in the Wind

I hold you in my heart and touch you in my dreams.
You are here each day with me, at least that's how it seems.

I know you wonder where we are... what's taking us so long.
But remember child, I love you so and God will keep you strong.

Now go outside and feel the breeze and let it touch your skin...Because tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God hold you in His hand until I can be with you.
I promise you, my darling, I'm doing all that I can do.

Very soon, you'll have a family for real, not just pretend.But for tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God wrap you in His arms and hold you very tight.
And let the angels bring the kisses that I sent to you each night.

When Love Takes You In!