Not flesh of my flesh, nor bone of my bone; but, still miraculously, my own.
Never forget, for a single minute you didn't grow under my heart, but in it.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Happy National Adoption Day! Hope you like the Video!

So for a long while I have thought TODAY the 22nd was National Adoption Day and have been working on this video to promote adoption! Well, low and behold this year they moved it from the saturday before Thankgiving back a week since the 22nd was the anniversary of JFK assasination. I did not get this memo so I in no way mean disrespect by posting this today but since I missed the 15th I am posting now. I still need to do some more work on this before I have it actually made up to use in Churches and other places. Also, I would love MORE pictures to add! If you have a child you adopted from ANY country or even domestic and you would like to share a photo to go in this video PLEASE email me @ childofmyheart@aol.com Also if you have tips for things for me to write in the credits or whatever Please let me know. This is basically a rough draft! I hope to add more photos and other things :) So please comment and let me know what you think :) Adoption is an amazing thing that I have been totally BLESSED to be involved in and I can't WAIT to experience the joys again as God eventually sends us the rest of our children! :) We are so thrilled to have our Noah! The first in the rainbow of children! :)

WE send you blessings and Kisses in the Wind!
video

Friday, November 21, 2008

Wow!

Wow! That is the only word I can think to describe yesterday. I shared that I would be sharing at our Ladies Meeting. EVERYTHING that could possibly go wrong yesterday afternoon preceeding that meeting DID! I had been praying for a long while about this time and what I was to share and had gotten several songs I felt would be used in the sharing of my story. Well, on top of all the other things that went nutso yesterday when I arrive at the Church and am getting everything prepped and ready for the meeting we realize that somehow windows media is damaged on the Church computer and so Carlos can not get my video or my audio songs to play on it to put up on big screen in Sanctuary. ugggh :( I have burned these off my computer on a cd rom and used windows media because I knew Church had that. I tried audio one in cd player. NOPE wont play :( I was the most upset about the video because it was just so powerful and it so speaks of how I feel. Well, Carlos is like if we can use the Pastor's laptop he MIGHT can get it to work. turns out laptop was broken! UGGGh Well I am literally at the alter crying. I mean the ONLY thing I knew about the night was these songs! I am feelin like all I want to do is go home and I have no clue what I am going to do. I get a text from an old dear friend who I had invited to the meeting that she is running late and just leavin her house but she is coming! YIPEEE! So i ask if she has either a laptop or a cd with at least the song the video is too. She has a laptop so brings that with her. Upon her arrival Carlos heads in there to try and work magic! Carlos is my friend Cassie's dear hubby. Our sound guy and also the main nursery worker for the night so the ladies can all be in the meeting! :) He is great and worked so hard to make this all work for me but to no avail. he could NOT get it to work with tv's. But he did get it to play on laptop so he put it on a podium and said I could just play it from that with volume up real loud. So at least I have that. Now that was not set up till after I had to start talking though. I had a song I had planned to start with and let me tell you it was NOT easy to start without that lead in. When I stood up I had NO IDEA what I was to say or going to say. I just started talking and sharing a story. My story. I have spent most of the day today trying to figure out what I would say about the meeting to y'all and well a friend that was at the meeting blogged today about it and so I decided I would copy and paste her post about it to give you a listeners view about it.
Here is what she posted:


Ok so that is only part of my day; from there I go right to work. I had thought I would do that and then come home and get some work done, well, nope. I got a text from my friend reminding me that she was speaking at her ladies' monthly meeting and wanted me to come. She had invited me before, and I knew I needed to go, but Thursdays are soooooooooo hard! I toyed with it, weighed my options, knew I was tired, knew I needed to get some work done, knew my sister-in-law was cooking, but also knew my friend is so much more important than all that stuff-I went.

Her part was a testimony time for her to share what God has done in her life. I have known her for years so for me to hear where she is right now was an amazing thing. To see her standing up in front of these ladies talking from her heart, not hiding, not cowering, just sharing, was in itself amazing. I remember when she couldn't look people in the eyes. I know being up there was not easy for her to do. Although hesitant, a bit out of place since I don't go to church there, I was instantly glad I was there with her at that moment. My heart has been so burdened for the prison ministry and what she shared gave me such insight into what these other women are struggling with. Her testimony is not so unlike the story of the woman with an issue of blood for 12 years who just knew if she could but touch the hem of Jesus' garment, she could be healed. My friend had to but take that one step towards Jesus and let Him heal her; it was that first step that hindered her. One step and one touch, just one and we are surrounded by the consuming power of Jesus' healing. She shared what it was like to take that step and the battles she faced in her journey. I am so glad she did.

I thought about the devotion Max Lucado did on Mary, Martha, Lazarus. Lazarus was the trumpet-the one with an awesome testimony. We can't all be trumpets, my friend gets to be. She has a trumpet testimony. I don't. She ended her testimony time with a video clip of Nicole C. Mullen's song "One Touch" and an encouragement to those who plant seeds. We don't always see the fruit of our investment in the lives of others, but it doesn't mean there isn't any. I have to confess I was a bit jealous of those who got to share in that leg of her journey that I missed out on. I really kind of abandoned her, not being sure how to help her. Not the first time I have thrown my hands up in defeat. I felt like my efforts in her life were futile....I have felt like that many times in my life. Her words reminded me that God gives the increase, God does the work in lives, not us. All of these that have my heart, I lift up to Him, I give when He gives me opportunity, I share, I testify, I love-He does the rest...not up to me to bear fruit.

Friend, blow that trumpet....we all need to come to that place where we reach out for that one touch from our Savior!

Watch the video-One Touchhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wtPZuNab9UY

Here is the Video that the link she put in goes to and that I used last night :)



I bawled when I read that. What more can one ask for in life than to be used by the Lord to help others. Me, a trumpet? I dont know maybe. PRAISE God that HE TOUCHED ME!! I KNOW I've been made whole!

You know at the end of it all, everything that went wrong before really did not matter. Music is the way I feel, the way I express myself. It is such a part of who I am. And yes it can tell so much. I can't tell you HOW I talked once I got up there but I did. I just shared my heart. There is so much more I shoudl have said, could have said but I must believe for such a time as this that what happend was what HE had for me to say that night! The only one of the songs I was able to use was that video but it was the most important. Before the meeting I did not think I could possibly do it and I almost allowed the enemy to convince me that I was not who God says I am. BUT GOD!

I will post some pictures of Noah tomorow! :)

WE send you blessings and Kisses in the Wind!

Thursday, November 20, 2008

word

Tonight is our monthly ladies meeting at our Church. We get together and bring yummo food and visit and then after we are stuffed beyond measure we have usually a Bible Study or some other word that someone has to offer. Tonight I am the speaker and I suppose I am to share the word of my testimony. I am quite nervous to say the least and feeling very unsure of exactly what I am and am not to say. Normally I have stuff written out, say this here, play this song there, pray this here. Not that is always comes out just the way I planned it but at least there is a guide. Tonight all I have is a cd with some song and 1 Video. Songs I felt led to bring with me. I have NO CLUE if I will use them all and have a general idea of when I plan to use 2 of them. The others are songs that speek to my heart or perhaps speak of something I feel or have felt. To be honest I could have made a cd with about 100 plus songs on it but I just have these few for now. I may regret I did not bring more. I do also have a song planned for a dear friend to sing that is part of the testimony. Please be in prayer for me and for those who will be there that God will speak THROUGH me and to that special place in each of them where they need a touch. I so want this to be ALL about God and not about me. I am so incredibly blessed to be FREE in Christ and that He has brought me as far as He has and I do believe that what I went through can be used to help others. I just have to kinda be open and willing to what God wants to do. ONE of the songs I wanted to take got ruined on the cd a while back, and for the life of me I can' t rember the name of the song or artist just some of the words. I wish I had that song tonight, but GOD knows what I need. and what I dont. Well, I am babblin anyway and the smoke alarm just went off with the food I am to take to Ladies meeting! that thing NEVER goes off when there are flames but when you just cook normally you get BEEP BEEP BEEP in the shrillest loudest sound! uggh

We send you blessings and Kisses in the wind!

Monday, November 17, 2008

In My Arms!

10 weeks ago today they placed Noah In My Arms! I can't believe it has been 10 weeks. Funny how when we were waiting the weeks seemed to DRAG by. My main focus was on what to cook for next week's sale to keep my mind off of how much of Noah's sweet life I was missing and keep me occupied till the next update and pics showed up! NOW it seems the weeks have flown passed and at the same time it seems like I have had Noah forever. Sometimes I so feel like his mom and other times I feel like he deserves so much better than me, why can't I figure out why he is fussing etc. I am so totally in love with this baby boy and I will spend my life trying to make him happy and content and make sure ALL his needs are met. I want to be a mom he will be happy to have. I want him to someday be GLAD that I am the mama who adopted him. I look upon the photos that I did not get to see until after we picked up Noah and I just ache to hold him then, to see that for myself. NOW I have that luxery! I have thought alot about Noah's birth mother during these passed 10 weeks as I did in the 10 plus months the preceeded that. I ache for what she gave up but am so incredibly blessed and thankful that she gave my son life and she gave that life as a gift to me. Please enjoy this video In my Arms FOR NOAH!



WE send you blessings and Kisses in the Wind!

Sunday, November 16, 2008

The LONG awaited First Birthday Party Video

Here it is folks! The long awaited First Birthday Party video. I am sorry it took so long to get this posted for those who have been anxiously waiting to see it :) I hope you enjoy it. We missed Noah's First Birthday as he was still in Taiwan. I remember I was so upset. From the beginning that had been something I soo wanted! To have him before his birthday. Well, God had other timing but he is here now! November 3rd marked 1 year since we first heard about Noah and so we thought what better time to celebrate his belated first birthday party! We had to have the party in the afternoon because of Bobby's schedule that did not work well with other people's schedules and some had fallen ill with a bad virus :( for the first 2 hours of his party it was just us and the grandma's and his uncle John from next door. We did the singing and cake and everything with just us. After Bobby had gone to work one friend with her two little ones came and so we repartied :) and a bit later a couple of mommies closest friends came by too. The end of the video is of Noah at Nicky's Mexican Restraunt having a birthday supper :) I pray you all enjoy the video as much as we enjoyed living it! :)



WE send you blessings and Kisses in the wind!
THE WAIT FOR NOAH IS OVER!!!! November 3, 2007~September 8, 2008 First heard about Noah~Noah in our Arms!
AND NOW THE WAIT FOR JEREMIAH IS OVER TOO!!!
April 1, 2009~ June 7, 2010 First committed to Jeremiah~Jeremiah in our Arms!

The FIRST Picture we EVER saw!

The FIRST Picture we EVER saw!
Noah WesLee 5 months old

The First Picture we ever saw of:

The First Picture  we ever saw of:
Jeremiah Harold Sisemore ~1 year


Kisses in the Wind

KISSES IN THE WIND
I hold you in my heart and touch you in my dreams.
You are here each day with me, at least that's how it seems.

I know you wonder where we are... what's taking us so long.
But remember child, I love you so and God will keep you strong.

Now go outside and feel the breeze and let it touch your skin...Because tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God hold you in His hand until I can be with you.
I promise you, my darling, I'm doing all that I can do.

Very soon, you'll have a family for real, not just pretend.But for tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.


May God wrap you in His arms and hold you very tight.
And let the angels bring the kisses that I sent to you each night.


When Love Takes You In!