Not flesh of my flesh, nor bone of my bone; but, still miraculously, my own.
Never forget, for a single minute you didn't grow under my heart, but in it.

Saturday, February 7, 2009

Learning, Learning, Appointments, Appointments, and surgery for Panda Boy

Hi all :)

Tomorow marks 5 months exactly since Noah was placed in my arms!! Right now it is 11:28 pm in Taiwan! 5 months ago right now I was goin nutty in a wonderful hotel room WAITING and DREAMING and trying to sleep! lol I would get my dream come true in LESS than 12 hours! WHAT an amazing thing! And now I am awe to sit here hours short of 5 months later and my amazing dream baby boy is playing beside me!!! :) Boy has HE taught me so much! :) And not just him but just in the journey to give him all he needs and take care of him. This past week we have had alot of appointments! Noah is 25 pounds and 33 inches tall. The Pediatrician says he is in the 30th percentile and growing well! Lots of tests were done for our poststudy report that is due at 6 months but has to be done earlier so translation can take place and it will arrive in Taiwan on time! Noah has been doing well with the special therapist from Early Steps program and we are thrilled with Maria! :) I wanted to make sure Noah has every opportunity to be the best he can be so I began seeking out other places and types of therapy to see what needs he might have. I found an amazing place in a nearby city called Little Works in Progress! I LOVE the name! Noah had 3 evaluations there this week! THIS constituted ALOT of learning for Mama! :) Noah has some sensory intergration issues. I had wondered but since he LOVES to be held and cuddled so much had been told most likely he didn't. Well, he does and do not ask me to tell you the type because I can't pronouce alot of what they said much less spell it! heehee but basically my son CRAVES deep touch! He needs to feel to the core. He also craves motion! We have some techniques to do at home for him and he will work at therapy as well. Noah always leans into me even when not in my lap but not just lightly he leans HARD! when I hold him he presses hard. in the bed he will lay pressed right up beside me but it is almost painful cuz he presses so hard. I did not realize these meant anything specific but just kinda thought boys are so much rougher than girls! Noah hits, bites etc but he is smiling and lovey and cuddly when he does this. Also he has to be hurt REALLY bad to cry and even then it is not appropriate for the the injury. He had blood drawn and they moved the needle around in his arm searching for the vein, no tears. Tb test with needle the same. I found this strange but once they started talking about deep touch it made since. They asked questions and I found myself going wow! I feel bad that I was not aware of this and that maybe I am not holding him firmly enough or touching him right but they are teaching us what to do. Another thing they said is to yes use a time out, but for like a mintue or two and then pick him back up with FIRM FIRM hugs! Not to wait a fit out at this point but to leave him a couple minutes and then HUG him and tell him we love him. For now it is more important we get this where he has the touch the needs. She said think about how much you touch and hold a 4 or 5 month old baby! Noah did NOT get that. She did say it was good that it was not worse. Some children with this continue on to the point that they do not like touch at all even though they crave it so they fight you when you are trying to give them what they want in the first place. Noah only does that when he is totally melted down. Anyway so he will begin therapy at Little works in progress for sesory and also for speech! He will only need physcial therapy once a month and mainly she will be teaching me what to do at home! He did really good and picks up well on what we try to teach him. He climbed a couple steps on the plastic slide at therapy alone with just our hand to catch him!! They all seemed to feel he will do very well and be on target and will improve in all areas!

Noah also had an appointment with an ENT(ear, nose and throat specialist) yesterday. It was recommended we have his hearing checked, and also the cartilage of the ear and just the ears in general. Well, the cartilage looks great! so that was a blessing. They do not do the actual hearing tests for pediatrics at this place we went but can have that done later, but they did a test where they can check the movement of the eardrum. They did this test on Noah and actually redid it on one ear and they found that his was flat. basically little or no movement. They said this is most likely from fluid and feel he needs tubes! Mama was NOT happy about the thought of surgery and anesthesia and what if he is allergic and all BUT I have to do what is best for my baby, right? and they say it is like he is hearing underwater. :( very sad. They cannot guarantee that this will help with speech but it couldn't hurt they said. So Noah's is scheduled for surgery Wednesday, February 11th! I am really having a hard time with the thought of giving my baby to this dr. I just met and letting him cut a hole in each ear. I have all these fears of what if it causes deafness, of course the anethesia concern and on and on it goes. Also the biggest thing is they are sayign I can't be with him till he is asleep or when he first wakes. I shake and cry every time I think of that and I NEVER want him to feel like he was taken away from us or we abandoned him. I am planning to really talk to them on surgery day and explain how long he has been here and all he has been through with the transition of adoption and PRAY they will make an exception. I also through a WONDERFUL friend and her hubby who are in the Anesthesia feild know a medication I can request he be given so that he wont remember any of it when it is over. Please be in prayer for Noah and mama and everyone involved!

After our evaluations at Little Works in Progress we went in search of a toddler appropriate park. Our town we actually live in is very small and does not have anything close to our home, but this larger neighboring city does! I was so thrilled to FINALLY after all this time find a park that we can play at and since Noah will be going to Little Works twice a week then we should be able to go quite often if the times all work out and such :) I am quite excited. Below are some pics of our park time :)

I just adore this picture! You can't see Noah's mouth but you can tell in the eyes he is smiling big! :)

My boy loves kisses!
One of the MAIN things I was wanting was a park with baby swings! Here is Noah the FIRST time ever being put in the baby swing!
He was NOT happy about it and was crying. Now he often does this if I put him down ANYWHERE so I kept trying hoping he would decide he liked it!

as you can see he is not thrilled still

so sad! I so wanted him to love it but was not to be for now!
At first he did not want anything to do with anything!
This was so cute! We had tried to walk him up the steps to go slide several times and he would not. He finally saw some other kids play on it and then he decided he wanted to and this is him reaching for my hand to go up!
Here we go climbing up!

Here he is letting me put him on the slide

Ready to go! We do NOT have one of him actually sliding cuz Celeste was too busy making sure she caught him! We will have to do a 3 person trip and have a photo person and a sender and catcher! :) heehee

I CANNOT beleive I am posting this on the net BUT I have been feeling so bad about being so big and cheating Noah out of a thinner younger mom who could do more with him I was determined to PLAY with my baby and show him mama doing stuff! So big as I am I went down the toddler slide! LOL

Noah standing and deciding the park is not too bad!
YUP! He finally did let us put him in the swing BRIEFLY and was happy! Did not last long but still finally my boy is swinging and ALMOST smiling! :)
So adorable! He is watching some bigger kids play!
Time to go! :)

Ok, so this picture has such meaning. I lived in the city where this park is when I was a child, played there as a child, took Celeste there a few times growing up and Bobby has been there as an adult before. to get in and out of the park you have to cross this bridge! So Celeste made a picture of Noah crossing the bridge we have all crossed over the years! :)
Below is a video of Noah working with Maria (early steps special therapist) at our home! He is so funny in part of this with trying to cry! lol not good lighting but thought some might enjoy!
We send you Blessings and Kisses in the Wind!

Monday, February 2, 2009

Vote for Noah!!!

Hi all :)

Please vote for Noah! I entered him in a baby photo contest on the spur of the moment. The winner is by online votes. Maybe we will win one of the cash prizes to help with the recognition of adoption or even help pay towards the adoption loans! I think he is the most beautiful baby! :) If he doesn't win this month, next month I may resort to table boy pics! heehee

Pay it forward a new way!!!!

I decided to participate in a Pay it Forward … here are the rules:Here’s how it works: the first 4 people to leave a comment on this post will receive, at some point during the year, a handmade gift from me. What it will be and when it will arrive is a total surprise!The catch is that you must participate as well: before you leave your comment here, write up a pay it forward post on your blog to keep the fun going. Then come back, let me know you’re going to play, and sit back and anticipate the arrival of your gift! Remember that only the first 4 comments will receive a gift from me, so be quick!I love that this is a crafty, hand made gift and that it encourages others to participate, so it is open to everyone, no matter the country as long as you Pay it Forward in your own way

I send you Blessings and Kisses in the Wind!!!

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Goodbye January...Hello February!

Well, in our family January went out with a bang and February came in with a bang! Celebrations and parties galore :) Many FIRST for Noah and some for us too :) We celebrated our FIRST Chinese New Year last Night on the last day of January to send the month out good :) Chinese new year began on the 26th but it last for 15 days so we are at least celebrating during that time even though not on the actual first day! :) It was a much worked for event and seems EVERYTHING that could go wrong did but in the end it was a wonderful Night. It was rather simple really. I cooked homemade cream cheese wontons (experiement that will definitly be repeated :) !!!! ) , and Chinese noodles with veggies in it and Bourbon chicken (though I cheated on this and we bought it frozen so I really only heated it up! It was all yummy :) I NEVER did find the offical red envelope I needed but we just used a red envelope that Daddy came up with. :) I have been thinking abou what to put in Noah's envelope and I know money is to go in there and other things can as well. We decided that each year Noah will receive how ever old he is in dollars. So this year he got a crisp new $1.00 bill! :) We has some little noise makers and things as well for him to play with. Next year I will probably add some other things to the envelope when I have a chance to pray and think about it more but the money aspect has been decided :) I had alot of fun trying to put this night together and was asked by someone "Why are you worrying so much about celebrating Chinese New year, he is 1 and will never remember?" This question was shocking to me actually because folks do first birthdays all the time even if babies don't remember. And yes Noah may not remember BUT he will someday see that we started from the Beginning to celebrate some of his culture along with our own. It is very important to me that Noah be proud of his heritage! :) We enjoyed adding a new holiday to our lives :) I am so loving that Noah is here and we have so many first holiday's to enjoy with him. I already can't WAIT till Valentine's day! MY FIRST valentine from a SON! :) and to give to a son! :) Anyway I will continue to share as I show the pics that some of you I KNOW are waiting to see :)

Noah WesLee Sisemore FIRST Chinese New Year Celebration with his Family!

Here is our Table! We set a place for Grandma even though she is still in the nursing home's rehab program right now :) We will take her new chopsticks to her up there :) I tried to kinda make it look festive with what I was able to find in town and all :) We had some decorations around and such as well :) I plan to search online for next year and see what all else is available :)

Noah chowin down on the noodles! His favorite part of the meal! :)

It was important to me that we try to eat this meal the way Noah would if he were still in Taiwan so MOST of us ate with chopsticks! LOL no wonder they are so little over there! heeheee :) just kidding. Of course Noah is not ready for chopsticks so as you saw above he used his hands :) On Jon and Kate plus 8 her toddlers had chopsticks that were for little ones and joined together at the top or something. I WANT to find those for Noah soon :)

I FINALLY DID IT! I got a peice of chicken! :)

Jei Jei doing well! You can't see but Nannie decided to use a fork! :) Said she was too old to learn to use chopsticks and she was starving and needed nourishment! heehee

Daddy goes at it like a pro! :) He was stationed in Korea for a time and I know he traveled quite a bit in Asia at that time so he has previous experience :)

Some sweet giggle time with mama and her panda boy after our aftersupper cleanup :)

More giggle time, off to put our outfit on :)

Here is Noah receiving his RED ENVELOPE! :) He LOVES paper so he was thrilled :)

He took the dollar out, handed it to me and went back in looking for more! heehee :)

Daddy and Noah :)

I love this little grin :)

He loved the noise maker toys :)

he played with them for the longest time :)

another shot of Noah and Daddy! check out the toys peeking out! :) The outfit was too big but that is ok! We did the best we could to keep it up so he could wear it! :) Was a gift from a friend :) I think he will get some more years of wear out of that outfit :)

My Sweet Panda Boy! :) He has no clue why we are standing him in front of the door with decorations and saying smile Noah! LOL

Celeste (Jei Jei) got cute with the fans from the table! :) She got pics of EVERYBODY like this :) heehee

Here is Noah's fan picture :)
I LOVE this shot of Noah! You can see his little runny nose and his cheeks all rough and chapped again. That happens every time he is sick! The doctor says he has Allergy induced asthma and she thinks it is from the change from Taiwan to the states. He is on medication and she thinks he will outgrow it!
Here is a shot of Noah and Jei Jei bein silly right before bedtime :)

Well that was the end of January with our Chinese New Year Celebration :) and we Welcomed February with a Super Bowl Party at Church! Noah's first Super Bowl with daddy! And YES I know the team he is wearing was NOT in the super bowl! lol but I had to go with what I had! It was really cute because Sara Jane came dressed in a cheerleader outfit for the same team Noah had his football outfit on from :) So of course the mama's got out the camera's :) They looked like the paparazzi was on them :) heehee

Noah was NOT happy I put him down! This is the BEST shot :)
Noah and Daddy Watchin the game together :)
another shot with daddy

Noah and Mama

Tried to get a shot of Noah and Jei jei :) He as wanting me! He has been even clingier than normal for him lately! I just keep remembering that if he needs me, he needs me! I mean he has only been home 4 and half months, if he was a 4 and a half month old baby and cried for me I would go to him immediatly! That is where we are with him :) I told our home study folks that is you took away every person, sight, smell, taste, place, and thing I had ever known for 4 and a half months you would find me in the nut house! I think he is doing pretty amazing to be honest! :) I just love love it when he snuggels close to me :) He is so sweet when he lifts those adorable arms up to me for me to pick him up and hold him :)
Well, now if you read this far THANKS and congrats! lol :)
We send you blessings and Kisses in the Wind!
THE WAIT FOR NOAH IS OVER!!!! November 3, 2007~September 8, 2008 First heard about Noah~Noah in our Arms!
April 1, 2009~ June 7, 2010 First committed to Jeremiah~Jeremiah in our Arms!

The FIRST Picture we EVER saw!

The FIRST Picture we EVER saw!
Noah WesLee 5 months old

The First Picture we ever saw of:

The First Picture  we ever saw of:
Jeremiah Harold Sisemore ~1 year

Kisses in the Wind

I hold you in my heart and touch you in my dreams.
You are here each day with me, at least that's how it seems.

I know you wonder where we are... what's taking us so long.
But remember child, I love you so and God will keep you strong.

Now go outside and feel the breeze and let it touch your skin...Because tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God hold you in His hand until I can be with you.
I promise you, my darling, I'm doing all that I can do.

Very soon, you'll have a family for real, not just pretend.But for tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God wrap you in His arms and hold you very tight.
And let the angels bring the kisses that I sent to you each night.

When Love Takes You In!