Not flesh of my flesh, nor bone of my bone; but, still miraculously, my own.
Never forget, for a single minute you didn't grow under my heart, but in it.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

My Noah!

Well, we sit here in a hotel room in Taipei, Taiwan with OUR NOAH! I am amazed at all God has done to get us to this point and just so incredibly blessed at this amazing creature who is my son! :) He is even more beautiful in person than I could have ever imagined. Pictures do not do him justice. I am just amazed by this little 16 month old baby boy who just shy of 72 hours of being given to us is doing so welll considering. It overwhelms me emotionally to think about how would I as an adult react if I lost EVERYBODY AND EVERYTHING I had ever known just boom! I can't even fathom what I would feel like and just the thought of it petrifies me. That is what has happend to my son. He has no way of knowing how long and hard we have prayed for him, or how much we love him or what we hope to give him in America. All he knows is everyone is gone. Considering all this the fact that he will snuggle on and off into my neck :) That he has smiled a few times. That he is beginning to play with us a bit. That is amazing to me! Yes he still cries on and off in this mournful cry and yes he is still lunging for taiwanese strangers but he is letting us in and I am so honored. We received a cd of photos of Noah that were taken at St. Lucy Center beginning at 4 days old and ending with Gotcha Day. There were tons of pictures we had never seen. Below is a video of my amazing son. I have added a few at the end of the last 24 hours :) Please enjoy and I hope I can figure out how to safe this on a dvd so someday Noah can see it :) Noah, Bobby and I TOGETHER send you all Kisses in th wind!

AIT Check and sweet gift for Bobby and I

Hi all :)

Well, we went to AIT this morning and it went very very well :) NO probs :) no questions at all really! God is so good! Noah was such a sweetie at AIT. I had had nightmares of a squaling baby and then thinking horrid of us. He was wonderful. made a game of goin back and forth from me to bobby :) and then it happend. Noah smiled a small smile at Bobby! I did not even see it. and of course NO CAMERA cuz ait took it away. :( waah then we played some with him while we waited and then mama got a few small smiles too! :) YIPEEE! breakthrough! He played with us and he sorta smiled! :) Hallelujah! Its like when you have a newborn and they smile for the first time but even more so! :) We came back to hotel and he flipped out again :( he does not like comeing into the room. He screamed and sceamed. Finally we took a SHORT nap. He still thrashes and cries in sleep :( so he woke up before nap out screaming but has been happier this afternoon. We ordered room service thinking it best for now to stay put! Got ice cream and NOah had his first bites of that! : HE LOVED IT! I know he is too young but I couldnt resist. I LOVE to feed him :) Well, here is a slide of pics of last couple days! :)
hugs all and Bobby, Noah and I blow you kisses in the wind!

Monday, September 8, 2008

We've Got Noah!!!!!!!!

I cannot even begin to express the feelings that I have at the moment and that have coursed through me this day! We have Noah! I am crying just typing those words! God is soooo good! I can't believe it! This has been such a long and at times very difficult journey and even more so now I can say so incredibly worht it!!! Of course I knew that before today but I know it even more now that I have my son, I have held him so and have rocked him to sleep for the first time! :) We did not get to meet the birth mother though there were two social workers who have worked with Noah's birhtmother from the begiinning and they came to say Goodbye to Noah, take some pictures with him and send a gift of 2 outfits home with us! I will ALWAYS have those outfits to show Noah that his birthmother sent them to him! It was an amazing day in so many ways. I got to be present as Jeff saw Mrs. Lucy for the first time and to watch so much of their special day :) Jackie and I will forever have a close bond in that we spent this time together :) We rode in a cab seated side by side on the longest cab ride of my life! The ride to my son! :) Y'all I cannot express to you how beautiful Noah is! WOW! He looks like a china doll! We had a slight delay because the social workers were with him but when they did bring him there was no warning, I just happen to be looking and bam there they were in the doorway! I IMMEDIATELY burst into tears! I dont think camera's or anything were even going at that point because we had no clue they were coming right then. Jessica was not even in the room :) heehee she came rushing in as did Jeff I belive to try and get some photos :) It is such an amazing feeling to have my baby, my panda boy with me FOREVER! No more kisses in the wind I can kiss him right here all I want. Please be praying for Noah. He is doing ok but he is definitly scared and he cries and I cry. It hurts so much to see him in fear and pain like that. I know he has NO CLUE what is going on. At ST. Lucy center he cried on and off and sometimes really loudly and just heartwrenchingly. He did let me feed him some so that was very good! :) When we got in the cab to head back to the hotel he did not cry. He was such a big boy! :) VERY CURIOUS about what was goin on and then on the way I got to hear him speak!! I dont know how to spell the sounds he made but the Nannies had told me he could say the word for car! He was watching cars out the window and saying that sound! :) Once back at hotel I tired to put Noah down to play with some toys and he cried! He wanted me to hold him!!!!!! I was so blessed by this! He will let bobby hold him but seems to prefer me at this point and I feel bad but if he had to choose one over the other since Bobby will eventually go back to work and I will be home with him it is good it is this way :) He did actually reach for me once when Bobby had him and I put my hands out after coming back in :) I was also very blessed to be taken down to peak into the nursery. They showed me the nursery Noah went into when he came to St. Lucy's from the hospital and then the Nursery he is in now. They said they would hold Breelyn (Chia-Ling) up at the window for me to see. Well, when I was down there, one of the Nanny's brought her OUTSIDE!!! :) I was able to touch her and talk to her and they told me about her and all :) It was an awesome experience! We have prayed for her since 2 days after we saw Noah's picture and said we wanted him and they sent her picture asking if we knew anybody. I feel such a bond with her! Holli she is a doll and taller than she appears in pictures to me anyway! You better get ready girl cuz they said she can climb out of her crib! :) heehee It was so nice to hug Sweet Peach and another Nanny I dont know her name and mei chung the interpreter. I so was trying to share with them my gratitude!! I also was able to send the gift to Su-Mei with the social workers and send word to her that we love him and thank her so much. I mean how on earth do you thank people for your child? Wow! When we got to the hotel just a bit after we got in our room, the front desk called and said they saw us come in with a baby and would like to bring some things up to us for the baby. I asked how much and they said nothing, it is for free. So 2 very sweet ladies came in and brought us a crib and a baby tub and a kneeler for me to kneel on when I bathe him!!! It was so kind of them :) They were oohing and ahhing over him :) I loved it :) I did not know if we would use the crib as we are fine with him sleeping with us but after I had rocked Noah to sleep I needed to use the restroom so badly so we layed him down in crib and he stayed asleep :) and is still resting there finally! The beginning of his sleeping he would cry in his sleep. He has been through so much. Poor little man. Anyway, I know you are so waiting so here is the slide show of GOTCHA DAY pics! :) Now there are a couple on the slide show from last night from the night market and such and when I flooded the bathroom at 2AM! :) heehee

Noah my sweet Panda Boy! Mommy is so thrilled to sit here and watch you sleep before my eyse :) I love you so much little man! We FINALLY have you!
THE WAIT FOR NOAH IS OVER!!!! November 3, 2007~September 8, 2008 First heard about Noah~Noah in our Arms!
April 1, 2009~ June 7, 2010 First committed to Jeremiah~Jeremiah in our Arms!

The FIRST Picture we EVER saw!

The FIRST Picture we EVER saw!
Noah WesLee 5 months old

The First Picture we ever saw of:

The First Picture  we ever saw of:
Jeremiah Harold Sisemore ~1 year

Kisses in the Wind

I hold you in my heart and touch you in my dreams.
You are here each day with me, at least that's how it seems.

I know you wonder where we are... what's taking us so long.
But remember child, I love you so and God will keep you strong.

Now go outside and feel the breeze and let it touch your skin...Because tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God hold you in His hand until I can be with you.
I promise you, my darling, I'm doing all that I can do.

Very soon, you'll have a family for real, not just pretend.But for tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God wrap you in His arms and hold you very tight.
And let the angels bring the kisses that I sent to you each night.

When Love Takes You In!