Not flesh of my flesh, nor bone of my bone; but, still miraculously, my own.
Never forget, for a single minute you didn't grow under my heart, but in it.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

The Climb!

The Climb!

I felt like I needed to share a bit with yall! Last night we finally heard back from Pathways for Little Feet and the news was mixed. Basically they want to help us out with a no interest loan BUT we would have to have a cosigner! Wow! Talk about a mix of emotions. Ok, so up to a $7,500 loan was in our grasp BUT it wasn't. So, this meant lots of prayer and looking at things. We had prayed if God wanted us to get that loan that they would approve us and they didn't. Sooo, that must mean God has another way HE is planning to do this without us going into debt and adding another monthly payment. It may be that we are going to NEED whatever that payment would have been for things that Jeremiah and Noah might need. Perhaps something medically for Jeremiah or something! I don't know but GOD does! I see through a glass dimly but HE sees all! So yes is a way I am disappointed because it means we don't have that $7500 right now to have waiting for when the judge says come! BUT, I KNOW that God has it under control and I have so much to learn in all this! It really is about the climb up the mountain and over it and then climbing back down! Do I know where the rest of the money is coming from NO! Do I know for sure how much we need? NO, because we do not know the date for sure, IF it is after May the airline will be more. BUT God knows it all. We will continue to work and fundraise and PRAY for Good Wishes, PRAY for folks to bid in our next auction, Pray for grants for travel, pray for sponsorship of nights in our hotels, Pray for it all. And be open to learn what we are to learn in the climb!  We have already had signs of God moving to bring the funds in :)  Our 100 Good Wishes Page already has 7 Good Wises and $95 in donations!  A friend Stormy in Arizona had a bake sale for us today and raised $50!  The Pampered Chef free mercandise came in so I can begin working on the next auction, and I had a brand new watch donated to the auction, I have had  several things mentioned for donations for the next auction!  God is going to make a way :)  I just need to figure out a way to get the word out more about this next one!  We have a Red Beans and Rice with Sausage Plate lunch sale coming up this Thursday and I am prayerful it will have a good amount of plates sold! :)  I have heard from one person whose jar is filling up to a great amount in the save your change...Change Jeremiah's life and was told that a check would be coming soon for what they had saved and it is not even Jeremiah's birthday yet! :)  Our family was featured on Storing up treasures and that gets te word out to more folks to pray for Jeremiah! There are so many things that have happend and so many way s I have been blessed during tis climb!  There have been some not so pleasant things that to this day still make me sad that have happend as a result of our journey to Jeremiah but even in the painful things I have learned!  I wish I could say I was a woman of great faith and did not ever doubt, ever fear, ever worry WHERE are we gonna get it all, BUT I would be lying if I said that.  I have had so many doubts and fears.  You would think I would learn NOT to go there but I still do :(  I am constantly comforted by my Lord showing off! :)  There is no doubt that God wanted this little boy to be part of us because we could NOT have done this without the Lord!  In EVERY way we know GOD has and is doing it! :)  I find myself NOT giving God te glory as I should in all of this and I find I get busy in the things of life and fundraising and paperwork and such and I dont include God in what we are doing and I think part of this climb is about me remembering that I am not alone in this, that God does love me even though I do not desrve it, that God blesses me with children even though I do not desrve it!  Even though!  I find myself remembering some things spoken over me back in the early months of my marriage when month afer month we were not pregnant with the biological child we planned to have before we started adopting.  It was spoken that I would be the happy mother of children!  YUP!  It was spoken that I would have the children of my heart!  YUP!  They have grown in my heart and came through an agnecy named HEARTSENT!  humm interesting!


 I could go on but I think you get the idea!  I am beginning a Bible study this week called Be anxiious for noting!  Timing for this is so good!  We could get first decree tomorow and be told to be in Taiwan in 3 weeks and I have no clue HOW we would do it!  Granted I do NOT think that is going to happen though for Jeremiah's benefit it would be nice!  But the point is I just don't know when tey will say come and I HAVE to trust that we will be ready when its time!  I am beginning to worry a bit about Jeremiah's needs and how I will do with meeting them and being the mother he needs and all.  And feeling like I have let him down by taking so long.  BUT I have to trust!!! So I will do my Be anxious for nothing study and I will trust and CLIMB!
 

6 comments:

Are These Kids All Yours? said...

PRAYING for your family!!! Wanting you to know you are not alone! Read the story of Gideon- starting in Judges chapter 6-7.......Gideon doubted- so MANY times, and God said- ok I will reassure your heart...I will work miracles so you can be sure....again and again. Be assured- you will be Blessed and God will bring him HOME!!!!!

Cyndi Kinney said...

Keep praying, Tami. You are an awesome woman of faith, and you inspire me everyday! We will help you to spread the word! I'm sending out a newsletter tomorrow, and I'll mention the fundraisers for you!

Also, I'll give you another $50.00 gift certificate for the next auction. Just let me know the details. And...we are still saving our change!!

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The Family K. said...

If anything, you are growing into a spritual giant through all the testing of your faith. And you certainly are an inspiration to the rest of us.

Kat said...

Ohhhh! God is so much bigger than money and I know you know that :)! I praise God with you at how far He has brought you with all the agency fees being payed. We will continue to pray!

momwithfaithandhope said...

Glad you are trusting in Him and climbing with patience! Praying for you and the family.

THE WAIT FOR NOAH IS OVER!!!! November 3, 2007~September 8, 2008 First heard about Noah~Noah in our Arms!
AND NOW THE WAIT FOR JEREMIAH IS OVER TOO!!!
April 1, 2009~ June 7, 2010 First committed to Jeremiah~Jeremiah in our Arms!

The FIRST Picture we EVER saw!

The FIRST Picture we EVER saw!
Noah WesLee 5 months old

The First Picture we ever saw of:

The First Picture  we ever saw of:
Jeremiah Harold Sisemore ~1 year


Kisses in the Wind

KISSES IN THE WIND
I hold you in my heart and touch you in my dreams.
You are here each day with me, at least that's how it seems.

I know you wonder where we are... what's taking us so long.
But remember child, I love you so and God will keep you strong.

Now go outside and feel the breeze and let it touch your skin...Because tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God hold you in His hand until I can be with you.
I promise you, my darling, I'm doing all that I can do.

Very soon, you'll have a family for real, not just pretend.But for tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.


May God wrap you in His arms and hold you very tight.
And let the angels bring the kisses that I sent to you each night.


When Love Takes You In!