Not flesh of my flesh, nor bone of my bone; but, still miraculously, my own.
Never forget, for a single minute you didn't grow under my heart, but in it.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Auction Ends..IF YOU BID READ THIS...and thoughts

The Auction ended Monday Night and I have contacted all but 2 winners.  2 emails have flown the coop!  IF YOU BID $25 on the Mixing set or $20 on the ceramic burner PLEASE contact me by email if you have your emails saved or whartever.  I can't figure out why I can't find the emaisl so I know who won!

now on to thoughts,

Noah's birthday was yesterday.  He is 3 years old.  This is such a time of celebration at the life of my sweet Panda Boy!  BUT it was sad for me in alot of ways, especially last night as I watched him sleep.  I know you must be sayin SAD?  how is his birthday sad, but the sad part is that I dont have a birth story to share with him.  With Celeste we always talk about all that happened and how we both almost dies and on and on about the day she was born, I can't do that with Noah.  There is not much at all I can share about Noah.  He was born in Tainan, Taiwan. at 4:30 pm Taiwan time April 19th 2007 to his birthmother. He was born by c-section.  I do not know why.  I know a bit about her prenatal in that she stayed in teh SLC mothers home before his birth and I guess someday I can share that.  But it just seemed so sad to me that I did not have any knowledge of what his birth expeience was like.  I am trying to find old calendars and prayer journals to see what we may have been doing that day, what I may have been praying at that time.  I am not really sure why it bothers me so right now.  I didnt think of it at all last year on the first bday he spent with us.  Last night it kinda made me feel like he is not really my child, but of course he is.  LEGALLY he is, but he has claimed ME!  so emotionally to him I am Mama and I would not have it any other way.  I worry someday how it will make him feel that I have no birth story to share with him.  Will he feel less because of it :(  I am thinking I want to learn about what it is like in Taiwan at the hospitals, are there customs that mothers typically go through when they give birth etc.  Granted in the case of Noah's birth mother she would probably not do alot of that since her plan was to put him up for adoption but it is still nice to know.  I doubt I am making since to anybody but I just thought I would share a bit.  IF those of you who have not adotped yet get an opportunity to speak to the birthmother, then I would say, ask them about what was going on that day the baby was born (if they will talk about it) ask them who was around, what time they went to hospital, and all the deatails.  I realize they may not want to talk about it, but if they did then it would be a treasure to have someday for your child.  I was so wanting to have some gifts and a picture book to give to Noah's birth family when we go for Jeremiah but finances are probably not going to allow.  How do I ever experess enough thanks to them for the GIFT of NOAH in my life??

For those of you who pray.. we have been hit with quite alot lately. PLEASE lift our family in prayer.

1 comment:

lorabelle said...

I don't think that he will need a very detailed birth story Tami.
You have the more details to share with him than many Adoptive parents do... I think that hearing about his adoption story will mean more to him someday. Hearing you tell him how long you waited for him and how you longed for updates and pictures... When you share your experience of traveling half way around the world to bring him home and your experiences while in Taiwan and at SLC. Your blog...
When he see and understand how much he means to you and how much you love him and how he came to be your son. Try not to worry...

Happy Birthday again sweet Panda Boy! You are so loved and adored by friends and family alike!

THE WAIT FOR NOAH IS OVER!!!! November 3, 2007~September 8, 2008 First heard about Noah~Noah in our Arms!
April 1, 2009~ June 7, 2010 First committed to Jeremiah~Jeremiah in our Arms!

The FIRST Picture we EVER saw!

The FIRST Picture we EVER saw!
Noah WesLee 5 months old

The First Picture we ever saw of:

The First Picture  we ever saw of:
Jeremiah Harold Sisemore ~1 year

Kisses in the Wind

I hold you in my heart and touch you in my dreams.
You are here each day with me, at least that's how it seems.

I know you wonder where we are... what's taking us so long.
But remember child, I love you so and God will keep you strong.

Now go outside and feel the breeze and let it touch your skin...Because tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God hold you in His hand until I can be with you.
I promise you, my darling, I'm doing all that I can do.

Very soon, you'll have a family for real, not just pretend.But for tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God wrap you in His arms and hold you very tight.
And let the angels bring the kisses that I sent to you each night.

When Love Takes You In!