Not flesh of my flesh, nor bone of my bone; but, still miraculously, my own.
Never forget, for a single minute you didn't grow under my heart, but in it.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

So Jeremiah had a few rough touch and go days this weekend but seems mire stabelized now!!! Praise God!!! For those that have asked we are at:
Sutton's Children's Hospital
PICU room 401
One St. Mary place
Shreveport, LA 71101

Jeremiah has severe pneumonia and sepsis that we ate battling . His fever keeps spiking even after tins of antibiotics so we worry their is something we are not finding. I worry with fever because his big seizures were with fever. Also everytime thr fever gets high then like the next day we have crisis issues all day. So praying against that today. This is so hard to sit here and watch him fight on the vent and all and nit be able yo hold him , feed him , comfurt him, take care of Jim in any way. There are days things are so bad they don't let me touch him ! I want to scream and say healing touch is what he needs and plus do you know waited 14 months to hold that baby, to touch him, to snuggle and kiss and feed and change his diapers and now even myers touch at times us nit allowed !!  Uggj! I know God has a plan and is teaching me something in all this and I try so hard to trust and NOT be scarred but all to often I fail! Today is day 16 in hospital and day 13 in icy and I am so ready for evidence if the healing!!! Friday july 2nd us my bithday and family is asking what do I want??? I want to hold my baby, I want to give him a bottle, I want us all in the same room at sane time. 
Please forgive this post and for probably sharing too much. Please keep praying for Jeremiah!!!!

11 comments:

lorabelle said...

Tami,
You have nothing to apologize for.
You have shown such incredible strength during all of this and your faith truly amazes me, and others I'm sure!

Thank you for sharing and keeping us updated as much as you have.
What you choose to share is very personal and emotional and if it's too much, then we totally understand... (Yep, I'm speaking for all of us!) I know there isn't anyone else out there who feels differently or expects differently from you.

Please know that each of us join together as we reach out to offer you a huge hug of support.

Bless you...

Julia said...

I can't imagine how tough it is right now for you. KNow that we are praying for you and for Jeremiah. Standing together before the King of Kings and Lord of Lords - lifting our feeble cries up to the one who holds all of us in His LOVING arms!

Sandra & Steve said...

I cannot imagine anything harder than what you are going through. You are doing an amazing job. I will be praying that you get your birthday wish to hold your sweet baby boy in your arms.

Dunns said...

I'm praying for Jeremiah, and your beautiful family. I pray that God has something special planned for your birthday! Just know that you're in everyone's thoughts and prayers as you go through this difficult time.

Love,
Debbie

momwithfaithandhope said...

Tami - I'm with Lora - you have absolutely nothing to apologize for and it's okay to be scared. I'm glad that you posted an update. Please keep doing so regularly for us prayer warriors.

Praying you get your birthday wish.

Hope said...

That is a tough situation. How do you manage taking care of Jeremiah PLUS make sure Noah gets the attention he needs? Hopefully this will all end soon. I hope you get your b-day wish.

Blog what you feel like. I bet you are helping others who may be facing similar (or partly similar) situations.

I personally would love to see updated pictures of Jeremiah, no matter how he looks. Do not be afraid to share him with us. We want to pray for him and see his sweet face, not matter if it is hard for us or not!! There is a lot of love and prayers for him and your whole family here!

Our road to adoption : En Yang said...

We are praying here in NY. I think that you are the best thing to ever have happened in this baby's life. If he was still in Taiwan, he may not have received the medical care that just may save his life. At least here in the US, you know you are giving him the best care in the world. And even if he is unaware of it at this point, he has his mommy (and forever family). You are giving him everything and that's just what he needs right now. Blessings to you and your family!

...Sue

Chris said...

Tami
How very difficult for you
an emotional roller-coaster-again!!
How I pray you get some answered prayer soon-for you and jeremiah's sake!
we are all thinking of you, and know that it is ok to vent, cry, and share anything you want with us-we are all here for you, and we are here waiting to rejoice with you too!!

Blessings and Love
Chris

Robin said...

Tami- You and Jeremiah are always in my thoughts and prayers. You have been amazing during this process and I am amazed at how much you have been able to share. I check back muiltiple times a day and send prayers and hugs each time.

Are These Kids All Yours? said...

Definitely still praying. When you have fought for your child- you bet- all you want to do is hold them and take of their every need. PRAYING!

Difference2This1 said...

Praying for your sweet boy...and your family who wants him HOME!! God bless, Jennifer (another RR family)

THE WAIT FOR NOAH IS OVER!!!! November 3, 2007~September 8, 2008 First heard about Noah~Noah in our Arms!
AND NOW THE WAIT FOR JEREMIAH IS OVER TOO!!!
April 1, 2009~ June 7, 2010 First committed to Jeremiah~Jeremiah in our Arms!

The FIRST Picture we EVER saw!

The FIRST Picture we EVER saw!
Noah WesLee 5 months old

The First Picture we ever saw of:

The First Picture  we ever saw of:
Jeremiah Harold Sisemore ~1 year


Kisses in the Wind

KISSES IN THE WIND
I hold you in my heart and touch you in my dreams.
You are here each day with me, at least that's how it seems.

I know you wonder where we are... what's taking us so long.
But remember child, I love you so and God will keep you strong.

Now go outside and feel the breeze and let it touch your skin...Because tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God hold you in His hand until I can be with you.
I promise you, my darling, I'm doing all that I can do.

Very soon, you'll have a family for real, not just pretend.But for tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.


May God wrap you in His arms and hold you very tight.
And let the angels bring the kisses that I sent to you each night.


When Love Takes You In!