Not flesh of my flesh, nor bone of my bone; but, still miraculously, my own.
Never forget, for a single minute you didn't grow under my heart, but in it.

Sunday, April 26, 2009

from my heart!

I wanted to write a bit today from my heart that is overflowing with love and closeness to the Lord today! Recently God has begun making lots of changes in our life, we are currently seeking His Face on what Church He would have us to be in, He has begun our new adoption Journey to Taiwan for Jeremiah :), my mother in law decided to move back to the rehab home where she made so many friends so she has moved out of our home, Celeste has taken a part time job in addition to her college classes, We are praying about opening our home in the fall to a foreign exchange student from Taiwan! Lots of Changes and things goin on in our lives right now. Not all of them have been easy. In the Church change relationships have changed and some of that has been VERY painful, walking into a big Church where I know noone and seeking God's face is a new and scary experience but I know that HE was there so that made it doable! I look at the financialy side of Jeremiah's adoption with my earthly eyes and it seems HUGE! I watch the baby fund NOT move, I watch giveaway fundraisers of donated items barely get any notice, and my human eyes get scared! Easter Sunday we visited a Church around the corner from our house and they sang a special of a song called "Through the Fire" It talks about He never promised that the cross would not get heavy and the hills would not be hard to climb! That when we stand in the valley of decision He will SHOW up and take us through the Fire again! That spoke so much to me at that time as I felt like I was bein hit by so much negativity for being obedient. That same song was sung again as a special this past Wednesday Night and again I felt it a balm from the Lord! Then Today in Church there was a guest preacher from the John Jacobs Power Force Ministry that will be at our Church all week as well as goin into the local school assemblies! Well, this preacher was on fire for God and he was preaching right to me! He spoke about the gift of Faith! And holding God faithful! He spoke about the KNOWLEDGE OF FAITH. That KNOWING that no matter how big the mountain is that GOD IS ABLE! I was balling! Here I sit HOLDING my evidence of Faith, of God is ABLE! I had Noah in my arms. I remember when we began the journey to Noah how I had NO CLUE HOW we would do it all and again and again GOD would show off and we got every penny , every paper, every everything we needed to bring Noah home and God was faithful! :) NO SURPRISE. I remember part way through that Journey I begged God for a sign that Noah was indeed ours and that it was gonna all come and He gave me that sign, the exact sign I asked for! I remembered all that today! As the pastor spoke about speaking things that aren't as if they are, WE DID THAT WITH NOAH! We spoke NOah as our son, the adoption as paid LONG before either was a fact in wordly eyes! God spoke to me today that I need to TRUST HIM and hold Him Faithful to move the mountains and bring Jeremiah home! It does not matter what my earthly eyes see! It does not matter what the world, or doubting folks in my life, or anyone or anything my say. MY GOD IS ABLE. MY GOD LOVES Jeremiah WAY more than we ever could! It is NOT about me being good enough, or worthy enough, or wanting too much by asking for another baby. IT IS ABOUT GOD and WHO HE IS! HE IS FAITHFUL! Through HIM I have the power to speak IN FAITH that Liang-Chung that waits in Taiwan is indeed OUR JEREMIAH HAROLD SISEMORE. and WHEN the adoption is FINAL we WILL travel to pick him up. GOD will do it! GOD will get the glory! And people will be touched, just like with Noah! YES, it can't happen like it did the last time, yes some of those grants are not available anymore, yes some loans are not available this time but that is all details that DO NOT MATTER! I either believe GOD or I dont! I CHOOOSE to HOLD GOD FAITHFUL! I CHOOSE to look on this entire situation with the adoption with eyes of Faith! I CHOOSE to look on EVERY hard thing with eyes of FAITH! God will show up and take me through the fire again! God will have the folks in my life that HE has to be there! I CHOOSE to follow in Him who I have believed! :) When God is for us, who can be against us??

Here is a video of the song Through the Fire :) and below is "I walk by Faith"

Jeremiah Sweetie. Mama and Baba and the ENTIRE family are doing everything we can to get you home QUICKLY! We KNOW God loves you and He is holding you tight till we get there sweet froggie boy! :) WE WILL BE THERE SOON! Till then catch my kisses in the wind sweet man!


Anonymous said...

What a powerful post! This is a testimony to your faithfulness. You may have typed these words but they were whispered directly into God's ear. He hears your heart and, yes, HE IS ABLE!

Anonymous said...

Hi Tami - I don't think I have ever posted on your site before. But I was reading this daily devotion from Proverbs 31 ministries and I thought of your last post. I copied part of it below. Praying for your family as you work to bring your son home.


"For we are God's masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago." Ephesians 2:10 (NLT)

Wait a minute, this cannot be right...But God's Word says that I am a masterpiece. And not just anyone's masterpiece; I am God's masterpiece.

According to Merriam-Webster's online thesaurus, synonyms of masterpiece are: showpiece, blockbuster, success, gem, jewel, prize, treasure, and piece of the master. Insert any of these words into today's verse in place of masterpiece.

Anonymous said...

I really needed this post this morning. Thanks again for lifting me up and pulling me out of my human perspective. Please, Lord, continue to give us a "God-eye" view of the situation.

momwithfaithandhope said...

He hears your prayers, He knows your heart, He knows Jeremiah and He Has plans for him. Abba, please answer Tami's prayers. Please continue to bring peace to her heart. Carry her burdens and her worries. Continue to watch over Jeremiah as he is cared for at SLC until You bring lead him home to his forever family.

momwithfaithandhope said...

It's me AGAIN. . .So your post is titled "from my heart" and I just came across something in my devotional book. . .

"Pour out your heart like water in the presence of the Lord. Liftup your hands to Him for the lives of your children." Lamentaions 2:19

Father, Like the prohet Jeremiah, may we acknowledge our pain and call it to mind with hope: "Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. The are new every morning; great is your faithfulness" (Lamentations 3:22-23)

Copied from "Devotions from Moms" - had to share this with you!

The Family K. said...

Thanks for sharing your heart. When you feel overwhelmed with the scope of the challenges, keep doing what you've been doing. Remind yourself of the faithfulness of God. Remember how he proved himself with Noah's adoption. The same God who brought Noah home despite seemingly insurmountable circumstances - that plane ride alone! - can do the same with Jeremiah's adoption. I'm looking forward to reading your post once you're on the other side with Jeremiah home. It'll be a good one, no doubt.

Kerry Shealy said...

Isn't it amazing when God chooses to grow us in faith? It so good to see this growth in you, Tami. I wish I could do more to help you bring your little guy home!

TanyaLea said...

This was a beautiful and powerful post. Your family will be in my prayers. Blessings and hugs to you all! <><


1 Thes. 5:24 ~ "The ONE Who calls you is faithful. He will make it happen."

Sarah k said...

Wow, I loved your post today Tami. I could really hear your heart there. Thank you for being brave and sharing what was on your mind and heart. I know that you and I have been here before, and I know that you know that God can do this again! God is leading you to this little one and HE will bring you through it! Honey, hang in there. We had so many fund raisers that our earthly heart and mind thought should have gained more than they did but ya know what, as I told my fund raising friend, "We got just as much as God had planned for us" and ya know what? GOD Has pretty much completed it. I too looked at it with wounded spirit, but God still did the amazing feat without my You are in the right spot! Ready to receive your blessing! God will provide the way!
One of my fave songs is.. God will make a way where there seems to be no way, he works in ways we cannot see, HE will make a way for me. I found myself months ago, I guess about middle of our journey, sitting on a merry go round singing this song over and over, just spinning slowly and watching God's glory pass me by one tree, one cloud, one miracle at a time. Hang in there hon! God will make a way!

Sarah k

Christine said...

Amen Tami. Hope you get your little guy home soon!

From the Heart said...

I'm playing catch-up. You commented on one of my post and I don't remember if I thanked you are not. After reading your post today I can say God is not through with you yet. All God's children needs parents and it sounds like you and your husband are more than willing.

The song by the Crabb Family, Through the Fire, is on my Playlist on my left sidebar. I have a DVD of them singing that and some others at the NY Tabernacle Choir. It's listed on my left sidebar under Recommendations... Just click on the Crabb Family and it will take you where you can buy it. That whole DVD is awesome.

Please come visit anytime and I will put your name on my prayer list regarding the adoption.

When you come I hope you will sign my Guestbook if you haven't already.
From my heart to yours,

Anonymous said...


Have you considered means other than fundraising to fund Jeremiah's adoption?

You adopted Noah last year which would entitle you to a federal income tax credit of up to almost $12,000. Can you use some or all of that money to help fund your next adoption? Also you will recieved up to $12,000 on next year's tax return, so have you consider taking out a home equity loan or a home equity line on credit against your existing property? That is what we did to ensure we had fluid cash flow for our adoption?

I ask these questions because I believe it is the Lord's plan for you to adopt Jeremiah, but maybe he has other plans to help you come up with the money to finance your adoption. Through prayer you should be able to get an answer to these questions.

Please don't be down over fundraising difficulties,in this economy people are cutting back in all area's - including charitable giving. Keep your head up - I believe you will have Jeremiah home soon.

The Three Of Us said...

Hi there! Well, my lil' Isaiah's birthday was on your anniversary I guess,(April 23rd). Neat! God bless you both for takin in children. That is a beautiful ministry.

THE WAIT FOR NOAH IS OVER!!!! November 3, 2007~September 8, 2008 First heard about Noah~Noah in our Arms!
April 1, 2009~ June 7, 2010 First committed to Jeremiah~Jeremiah in our Arms!

The FIRST Picture we EVER saw!

The FIRST Picture we EVER saw!
Noah WesLee 5 months old

The First Picture we ever saw of:

The First Picture  we ever saw of:
Jeremiah Harold Sisemore ~1 year

Kisses in the Wind

I hold you in my heart and touch you in my dreams.
You are here each day with me, at least that's how it seems.

I know you wonder where we are... what's taking us so long.
But remember child, I love you so and God will keep you strong.

Now go outside and feel the breeze and let it touch your skin...Because tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God hold you in His hand until I can be with you.
I promise you, my darling, I'm doing all that I can do.

Very soon, you'll have a family for real, not just pretend.But for tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God wrap you in His arms and hold you very tight.
And let the angels bring the kisses that I sent to you each night.

When Love Takes You In!