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21 Months!

Wow! I can't believe Noah is 21 months old today! :) I am so blessed :) Each day with him he learns and surprises me more and more! I can't believe he has been in my life and heart over 14 months since the first day I laid eyes on his photo and in my home just over 4 months! What a 4 months it has been! :) The latest excitement is that Noah can now say "MAMA"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am beyond myself with excitement! and it is consistent he makes the sounds now :) He will saw ma ma ma ma! :) heehee but he says it and grins! He is so proud of himself! When he wants me and he is not getting me for some reason he will go ma ma ma ma ma over and over :) Just like he does Jei jei and Da Da!! He also can sign eat, more and his version of water! :) so cute! But boy howdy he thinks if he signs it he is suppose to get it NOW! LOL He does NOT like no that's enough or whatever! He gets so upset and will sign and cry :( so sad :( He is fighting sleep ALOT more so that is not a good thing and he still wakes up in the night and the ONLY thing that calms him is laying in our bed or getting up. I have an aversion to waking up at 3 am to stay! Just a weird thing about me! heehee I think it is just a security thing for him and when he comes to the surface he wants to make sure we are still here! :) He has started climbing but not bad. he will hike a leg up and I have to stop him quick or he will be scaling something! Mama still does not care for that skill! :) Noah is doing very well in therapy and has fallen in love with Maria his special therapist and will hug her and everything by the end of each session :) He loves to run from me to her and get lovings from each of us! I struggle alot with feeling like I am not being the mama that Noah deserves and I keep striving to do better. I know he is very attached to me and that is a good thing! Though at times it can be difficult for me and somewhat upsetting for others. Alot of folks have quit trying to play with him and such because he is so clingy to me and that makes me sad that they will miss out on the joy of him because they can't be a bit patient with him. Believe me if they just hand on the joy he will give them is so above the top! :) We have quite a group of toddlers in our Church now and though we have always done a family sunday school we decided the need for a class for the toddlers was important and since Bobby and I are the children's Pastors we will be teaching that class! :) I am so excited and must say overwhelmed in some ways. I have worked in day cares in the past with 21 one year olds but for some reason just the responsibility for these little ones while giving my son what he needs is overwhelming. Yesterday was the first class I taught (bobby ended up having to work). Only 4 of them were there but one particular little boy cries ALOT and so anytime I tried to comfort him or any of the kids Noah had to be in my lap too! Jealous is an understatement! :) But I guess that is good that he KNOWS I am his mama! :) It was quite a loud class this time as one little girl would play scream anytime the boys cried at all! lol But we did sing some and we had music going the whole time and we learned that God made them and their eyes and ears and such! :) even in all the tears it was a sweet time if that makes since at all. Sharing is NOT a strong suit by most in this class! Noah has always been remarkably good at that. I wonder if it was the fact of having to share everything at the orphanage! He is learning now to not share here lately and I am like, whoa buddy you were such a good share boy. lol! Wanna fuss at the others not to teach my boy to be that way heehee! :) Noah is such a cuddle bug! Some days he is literally in my lap or arms all day and crying if I have to put him down. He LOVES daddy and literally JUMPS for joy when Bobby comes in from work and such! And the grin is ear to ear! :) He also adores Jei Jei and playing and dancing with her! They have such a sweet relationship! He is very into the two pups and will just giggle watching them :) He has the most adorable personality and will lean over and put his face in front of mine to get me to look at him if I am looking at someone or something else as if to say DONT FORGET ABOUT ME HERE! heehee In all the midst of my mother in law and her medical fiasco's and 3 different hospitals and Icu and such Noah was such a trooper for such a long while. He did begin to have some melt downs LATE late at night when we would come home to rest and I had to make the decision that since she was no longer critical we had to be home and back to a more normal schedule and life with him! Just a couple days and he is back to the schedule for the most part. I mean it is not set in stone but we do have a somewhat schedule we try to stick to for meals and sleeps. He does better that way it seems! I am sure I am just totally rambling here! Sorry yall. I have had a few requests to post about how Panda Boy was doing and all so I am just writing what comes to mind at this point! :) I just can tell you I am more and more in love each day with this baby and I can't imagine my life without him! I so want to be the mama he deserves and give him everything in the world I can! It amazes me that he is 21 months old! The therapist evals have put him at younger ages in different areas and that is ok because he is who he is! He definitly learns, he definitly is growing and developing and he definitly can love! I thank God for all these things! Most of all I thank God that He trusted me with this angel baby! Children are gifts from God and I defintly do not feel worthy of this gift and commit again to Noah and the Lord to do ALL I can to be the best mom I can be, to raise this child to love the Lord and be all that he can be! Here are a few pictures of our sweet little man!

The quality is not good! I had my cell phone in there in case a call came in about mom in law! He always does the CUTEST things when all I have is the cell phone!


So funny to me that THIS is the baby who screamed bloody murder during baths at the beginning! :)

Isn't he the most adorable thing! :) So sweet! :) Here he is in a present from Breelyn and her mommy! :) You can't see the whole outfit but you can tell how good it looks on him! :) Course EVERYTHING looks good on Noah! He is so beautimous! :)


Here is Noah playing with Daddy and some keys on a lanyard at the hospital waiting room! The pics took at the hospital will be the last ones in THIS stroller! It broke yesterday beyond repair :( It went through my neice and 3 nephews and was used when they got it! My nephew nathan is a VERY large boy so it served a good life! It was given to me for sentimental reasons so I never bought a stroller. Now I will have too because I use it ALOT!


Table Buddies!!! :) Noah and his friend Tathen! I can't remember if I posted this yet or not! :) I was babysitting and Noah had to share his shelf! heehee :)

WE send you blessings and Kisses in the wind!

Hospital Ambush and such!

Hi all :)

We have been basically living at the hospital for several weeks. My mother in law has had a major go of things. She had to have a pacemaker put in after 2 hospitilizations after unexplained passing out. So then just a week and half after the pacemaker was put in she leaned over in her chair and her hip popped out of place! Go figure. So they had to pop it back in. In that process it turns out that the lower lead to the pacemaker jarred loose but the er staff had no clue and assured us that the pacemaker would be fine and sent her home that same saturday night. By monday she was back in er unable to breathe with tons and tons of blood on her lung! Now they are saying probable cancer. We are like what! could it possibly be the pacemaker or something. NO they tell us "that can't happen" I personally learned along time ago to never say Can't happen in medicine. Well that is just what did happen. The lead came out shot through her heart, the thoracic cavity and into the sac surrounding the lung. Hence the internal bleeding. She ended up having to have some transfusions and a major surgery on heart and lungs whereby her ribs were broken in the process. Before that surgery it was thought she might die. Praise God she did not! Then after surviving that repair surgery she had to have the pacemaker replaced so that her heart was working right. She was in ICU for awhile but is now in a regular room doing quite well! We literally took up residence at both hospitals she was in. Poor Noah was not only panda boy but waiting room boy, stroller boy. you name it! He did amazing actually :) Anyway onto the ambush! heeeheee Spending great amount of time in an ICU waiitng room is quite stressful and boring. You wait for hours on end for the few short minutes you are allowed to go in and see your loved one, then you do it all again. all for 5 short visits in a 24 our period. You begin going quite nutty to be honest! Well, some friends of ours Tina and Katherine decided to come and visit and keep us company. They came around the corner to the area in which we had made home away from home and were dart guns drawn and shooting! I joked later good thing we were on the heart unit because they just about gave me a heart attack!!! HEEHEE it was a total blast and I learned some things about my hubby in the process! Had no clue he would love dart gun wars so much! :) heehee new ideas for Christmas next year! heehee Only one injury in the ambush! Bobby's ear! Celeste got it good and it he hollard and then I was like WATCH out for the baby! lol I had no clue they could hurt someone. Nerf after all! Oh well, live and learn! After the ambush the hung out with us for a good while and Tina and Bobby played travel scrabble! It was a fun fun night. THANKS Tina and Kat! Here is a video of the hightlights of that evening for your viewing pleasure! More pics and things from the past couple weeks to come later when I have the time and energy to stay up late and get them up :)

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Breelyn Chia-Ling has her Mommy! and Mommy has her baby!

HALLELUJAH! Holli and Breelyn are together at last! Thanks to all of you for your prayers ALL this time for Chia-Ling as you prayed for Noah to come home! :) His best buddy is FINALLY with her Mommy and will be traveling to the US soon to meet Daddy and Big Sister! :) Here is the shot I have waited over a year to see!!!

Holli and Breelyn Chia-Ling! TOGETHER AT LAST!

THE FIRST DAY of THE FIRST YEAR that....

Today is THE FIRST DAY of THE FIRST YEAR that Noah will spend the ENTIRE year with me, with his entire family! :) I am overwhelmed today by this! :) There will not be a day in this year that Noah was WAITING for us or we were WAITING for Noah! He will be MY SON EVERY day this year :) YIPEEE :) Just had to post about that!

Noah had a pretty good day today even though he is still not completley back to normal! :) I got the cutest picture of him on my cell phone today when I put him in the high chair! HE CLAPPED! heehee :) He knew he was getting food!

heehee That boy truly loves JUNK food :( It is a true battle. If he sees a french fry of any kind he will refuse to eat anything and SCREAM trying to get you to give him fries. You can't give him a little of this and a little fry. He wont eat anything but the fry. :( Also cookies, crackers, and candy! The new thing now is if he sees ANYONE's stocking he will point at it and scream! that happend after ONE peice of reeces! He is a smart boy! He knows what is in them now. He will point at the shelf where his gerber graduates are and scream! If he sees a yellow bag in the store he assumes it is gerber and HIS. It is quite a scene! Trying VERY hard to get him to eat a balance of things but he is so picky and seems to ONLY like cookies and crackers and junk :( excpet yougart. HE LOVES the yobaby yougart! :) I am trying to find out how to research how much calories he needs in a day, and like a sample normal menue with times and such. I worry I am not doing right.

We were blessed today to be "kidnapped" by some dear friends and taken to eat at IHOP! Noah's FIRST trip to IHOP on his first day of 2009! I was quite impressed that the children's menu had talapia and some other healthy options! :) Noah will get about 3 meals out of it but that is ok :) He saw the fries with the Talapia and some on other plates and he would eat nothing but fries :) I did manage to fool him a bit. I broke up fries, and fish, and some tomatoes and put them all there together and put some grated cheese! He LOVES cheese like his mama and when he would try to get the cheese or fries he accidentally got some other food too! :) heehee He will eat the rest of the fish when there are NO FRIES in sight! We brought home doggie bag for him :) Here is a video of a bit of the evening at IHOP! :) When it got really fun Celeste quit taping :) You can see Noah pretty good in it so I thought y'all might enjoy it :)

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I wanted to thank ALL of y'all who have followed us in 2008! Who prayed for us, cried with us, rejoiced with us, sweated with us over the money. Helped in any way towards bringing Noah home. I have SO MANY friends from this blog and this adoption experience :) I am so blessed. It is so nice to know and follow along on y'alls walk with Noah's roomies! And I ask you to be in prayer for Breelyn Chia-ling as she comes HOME this month! I am so excited for Holli and her family :) It is amazing how CLOSE you can become to people when you walk this journey together but so FAR apart!

Thank you also to our Church family and our kinfolk! :) We are so blessed to have you each in our lives and Noah is beyond blessed to have all yall :)

Special Happy New Year Wishes to Aunt Liz and Uncle Andy and cousins Katie and Kristen, Uncle Ricky and Aunt Nancy and cousins Ricky and Krystal, Uncle Johnny and Aunt Carole and cousins johnny, kayla, darla , and Ronnie Joe. I believe they are all following along on the blog now! :) And Also to Aunt Dorothy and Uncle Harold (Fondly known to Noah now as Pawpaw! ) Noah does not have a living grandfather and Uncle Harold gave me away at my wedding because he was more a daddy to me anyway so it is only fitting he is Noah's Pawpaw! Anyway HAPPY NEW YEAR to EVERYONE! We wish you a year of love and blessings in our Lord Jesus!

WE send you kisses in the wind!

Will you Marry Me??

Four Years ago tonight my Binky Boo (aka Bobby, my hubby) stood up at our Church's new year's eve talent show portion of the evening and proposed to me in front of the entire Church! :) This began an amazing adventure that as I look back over the past 4 years I am in shock at all God has done and the joy Bobby has brought to mine and Celeste's lives! and now Noah's too :) I never knew romance was for real, that it could really exist and BOY was I in for a shock with my courtship with Bobby. He treated me like a queen! He still does now though not to the same level but only because of time and money I beleive! Tonight that sweet man called me on the phone from work and said the same words to me again! :) I hate we are apart tonight but I know we are close in heart! Bobby has changed my world and I KNOW he is a gift from God to me and to Celeste and Noah! :) I can't even begin to express how wonderful it is to have a GODLY husband who tries SOOO hard to give us a good life, who spends vacations going to Children's Camp for a week with our Church kids, who on top of working 2 jobs still helps plan lessons, lockins, outings, etc for our Children's ministry, plays with our son, works on teaching our daughter to drive and spending time with her, and helps me with the house to excess when I am sick. He loves me and I can't tell you why but I thank God above he does and that he loves our kids!!! I dedicate this post tonight on the anniversary of my proposal to the BEST husband and father there could ever be! Here are a few pictures to share! :) I hope you enjoy them and if you have a minute PLEASE lift my sweet binky boo up in prayer to the throne of God!




Here is a montage of our wedding photos done by a dear friend of our family! Bobby gave me the wedding of my life that I had waited over 30 years for and had secretly dreamed of but been too scared to really hope for!


My Binky Boo! :) Off to work Christmas 2006. When Bobby works on holidays he ALWAYS makes sure to somehow be with us as much as possible!

This is the spot that Bobby first proposed to me the first time LOL when I said I can't aswer you yet! It was very very soon after meeting and he knew then I was who he would marry. He also asked to kiss me the here and I said NO. poor guy! THANK GOD he didn't give up on me :)

Here we are on our wedding day again.
just playing :) took on the cell phone :)

Playing with our son. I know you can't see Noah but the picture is so good of Bobby I had to keep it :)

Thanksgiving 2008 at "Uncle Ricky's" home! :) "Aunt Carol" took this picture with our camera If I remember right! :) THANK you Carol!

Daddy and Noah sleeping! :) This is also on our Thanksgiving trip at "Aunt Liz's house" :) aren't they sweet :)

I thank God that I have a man I do not have to BEG to go to Church. Bobby wants to be there and gets so upset when work prevents it! He was as anxious as I to dedicate Noah back to the God who gave him to us! :)

Great Shot! :) I LOVE how his eyes light up when he really smiles!!! This was actually on our trip to Jackson to go and have USCIS fingerprints done for the adoption of Noah! :)

This is Bobby, Celeste and I in Dallas at the Galleria Mall! This was the hardest week of my life! When we took my baby girl to college and had to leave her! I did not think I would survive the pain but with Bobby I did and I can tell you alone I never would have made it! The picture is very grainy but I love it :) Unfortunatly not print quality :(

Bobby, Noah and I walking at "Uncle Ricky's" to see all the animals! :) I ADORED this day! I wish we were close enough to go out there and walk and spend time outside like that alot more often! :)

Bobby and Noah! MY MEN!!!! :) Aint the gorgemous???!!!!??? :)

Celeste and Bobby! :) This was at the car wash the children's Church had to help fundraise for Noah's adoption! :) LOVE LOVE this shot! :)

Another shot of my men! :)

Bobby and I outside St. Lucy Center on Gotcha Day! :) Taken by our dear friend Jackie! :) We were so blessed to meet and spend time with them on our trip! :)

This is Bobby, Noah and I at St. Lucy's Center orphanage in Tainan, Taiwan on the day we were gifted with our baby! Over 3 years of praying and waiting for our baby from God but oh boy what an angel He gave us :) THANK YOU JESUS you brough Bobby and I together so Noah could be in our forever family! :)

I may question myself alot on if I am being a good mama or not but I never question Bobby being a good dad! Most men his age would not want to start a young family but Bobby felt as called as I did, he had longed for it even longer than I had. He does all he can to be an amazing daddy!!!

I am crying as I type this post. When I first met Bobby I was so scared I wanted to run! A friend said to me, its ok, you never have to see him again! PRAISE GOD that did NOT happen! :)

Bobby, I love you more than you will ever know. I am trying to be the wife that God would have me to be to you though I can never be the wife you deserve I am trying! I LOVE YOU!

Wawa and first bad owie

Noah has been doing amazingly well in alot of areas lately and we are even pretty sure he is talking! :) He says dada alot, though not always for bobby, but he does it definitly any time he is around bobby. He also is making what sounds like jei jei for Celeste. This is amazing and I am excited it really appears Noah is talking. Well, I have been a bit down that he is not saying mama or anything like it or anything at all for me. Well, the past couple days he has been making some sounds and I kinda wondered, is he trying to say mama? Well, then I am like I am trying to convince myself of something that isnt. So last night I rocked Noah and put him down bout 9 and by 11:30 he was WIDE awake and screaming! I was not quite sure what is going on. This is the 2nd night he has done this. The night before he was up most all night and unless I held him a certain way with me he screamed. Well, to keep him from thinking it was time to get up up I rushed out of the room to grab wipes and was gonna change him in the crib in case that was our upset. Well, as soon as I set foot passed the crib he was running across the crib, arms in air SCREAMING like in petreified fear "WAWA WAWA" I stopped and scooped him up and hugged him so tight and he stopped crying and then grinned at me! well obvisouly we are awak and happy to have mama! I am CONVINCED he was calling mama in his way. So I am pretty convinced I am wawa! lol who would have thought. As I later rocked him in the bed with me I cried because it is just so wonderful to think he is calling me something I PRAY. I am having doubts again but I was pretty convinced last night that was what he said. He did not sleep much last night either and I am not sure what is going on with that, though it was better than the previous night!

My little panda boy is definitly getting a mind of his own and as he has been sick and all his nose is running constant so I am wiping it with wipes and all. Well, NOAH does NOT care for this and so day before yesterday he decided to RUN FROM ME! uggh first time this has happend. Well, he ran, tripped and smacked the corner of our couch on the bottom and lets just say it is VERY hard. I was petrified cuz his head jerked back! Ok, just another 20 years added on to my age is all! His neck seems fine but his cheek and eye are not. Almost immediatly the cheek bruised up and by the next morning the eye did too. His first BAD owie! His first BOY injury! I have been told to get use to this because with boys there will be alot more. Not so sure how much I like my baby being hurt MORE :( ugggh I tried to get a good shot of it so you can see it but he is not cooperating and it is not showing well in photo but here it is

Can you see the redish bruise on the cheek close to his eye?

Another shot of it here. It is now bruised kinda lightly black under the eye. like major circle under the eye

I know this is a blurry horrible shot and can't see the owie at all but I love the grin :) He is TRYING to keep me from taking his picture and finding it quite funny! :) lol

Noah is definitly into climbing and in addition to climbing ON everything he is also climbing under and in everything not just the coffee table anymore :) Here he is giving the exersaucer a new role :)

You can't tell but he is just a laughing :)

now he is trying to STAND up on the bottom of it! lol Guess he is doing some science :) heehee

We (Panda Boy and Wawa) send you blessings and KISSES in the Wind!